Update on the Purity Challenge (theredpill)

submitted ago by Native

I failed on the 21st which coincided with some personal things that appeared suddenly which I had to deal with and found myself having to take time off Voat.

First thing that needs to be addressed is that I felt and still feel like such a piece of shit for failing over and over and over again. I didn't look at anything degenerate but the allure of naked women just keeps breaking me.

There are guys on here, that have succeeded so well at alot and here I am an 'owner' of a redpill sub and I keep failing for years now.

I'm not trying to get sympathy points, just frustrated. One thing that has been getting me through is that the no booze part of the challenge is still going great for me and i'm happy with progress. The other thing though and perhaps my issue is that I constantly over-judge myself.

I've come to the conclusion that it's not my job to judge, it's God's. And my insistance to judging myself keeps leading me to failure because I obssess with my own failures and ultimately keep going back into that cycle. Not even sure how that works, but I haven't tried simply to 'not judge myself'.

So, i'll try that.

Hope everyone has a great weekend!

I watched the Democrat debate, wow.

Made me feel instantly better about myself.

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Gigglestick ago

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It’s okay dude.

RURAL-TROOPER ago

Try doing a fast with prayer. 1 day without food and go about your normal routine. Don't let anyone but God know about it.

Native ago

I do intermediate fasting regularly however haven’t done this thanks for the recommendations.

con77 ago

The dems would be hilarious if they werent evil. so inept.

metricisokay ago

Sounds like you're doing fine, 20 days without porn is good. The challenge is not making it a habit, and trying to avoid the stuff a lot harder in the interim lest you fall back into the spiral.

Keep doing what you do better, that is your penance.

Native ago

Thank you Metric, I appreciate it! Yes 20 days is good and i'm working on passing that again.

There really are benefits that I saw going that long and I was/am just upset that I failed. That's life. I'm learning

Bigdickedelf ago

Repent of your lust OP. I did about a year and a half ago, and with time, I have never felt so free.

Chempergrill ago

You got rid of your lusting all together? A year and a half is no joke.

How did you do it?

Bigdickedelf ago

Praying every time those thoughts came up

Chempergrill ago

That's fantastic. Bless you

Native ago

I’m repenting!

Chempergrill ago

Don't let shame get to you. Pick yourself up and keep going.

I slipped up and drank twice in the month of January. Going strong on the porn. Haven't used it to get off in 109 days.

Hope you're doing well otherwise.

Has the Challenge concluded, or are we in overtime?

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Redcobra ago

Dude if your a month without booze you’re doing great.

Native ago

Indeed!

Well, I did drink a couple beers however it was always at a social engagement, which was the personal rule that I set for myself.

I fell into drinking by myself and got trashed and made many bad mistakes, so the last year and a half I’ve tried only to drink in public.

Redcobra ago

Indeed , Just try to keep the booze from negatively affecting your day to day.

I don’t see a problem with a few social drinks but usually that’s not what people do.

Whatever I’m not your mom do whatever you want

FuggBenis ago

Don't focus on your failures, keep your mind on the eventual prize. It may not feel like it, but the fact that you keep trying will make you successful one day. Winners are winners because they have lost many battles before, but kept on trying. Losers have lost because they eventually gave up. You have done so much for me, I'll never forget it, and I have the utmost faith in you.

You will succeed, Native. Don't beat yourself up over trying.

carnold03 ago

“If you know the enemy and know yourself, you need not fear the result of a hundred battles. If you know yourself but not the enemy, for every victory gained you will also suffer a defeat. If you know neither the enemy nor yourself, you will succumb in every battle.”

― Sun Tzu, The Art of War

Failure is as much a part of the learning process as success. It reads like you've learned a good deal about yourself while engaged with it. I'm confident that with due diligence that you will succeed.

Native ago

Thank you Carnold I appreciate it and I appreciate your continued support on this sub and on Voat while I was away!

Master_Admin ago

Failures are the building blocks to success the greater the long suffering the greater the achievement when you make it, and you will! You must be patient and diligent. We're all gonna make it.

Native ago

Thank you. What makes makes humans unique and makes me believe earth isn’t our natural realm is that we grow from suffering.

Suffering also exemplifies our character. If we are evil it will show, if we are good we will grow. In both cases we still try and survive regardless and hence why the battle for good and evil continues.

Redpillchugscum ago

Cease being a weak brainwashed christ cuck niglet.

Porn is a ok.

Bigdickedelf ago

Found the kvetching kike!

Native ago

Go eat sunny side up eggs like the faggot you are

3773 ago

Don't bring sunny side up eggs into this...

Native ago

Never trust a man nor a Whamen who eats sunny side up eggs...

This is well known

3773 ago

Haha really? That one is news to me. I always say, never trust a man who only eats egg whites. The runny yolks are fucking delicious.

Native ago

CHeck out v/soapdoxbanhammer and ask them about sunny side up eggs and a massive argument will ensue.

This I can tell you

3773 ago

Haha, no thanks. I avoid that sub. I made sunny side up eggs and bacon for breakfast this AM. If you don't like runny yolks, something is wrong with you.

Native ago

This is how I know you are a bot,

Real people don’t eat sunny side up eggs!! This is literally well known

3773 ago

Beep beep! Robots have to eat too.