Thank you Carmencita for your diligence in getting this back on
I was ritually abused in these tunnels as a child from 1961 until about 1970 It started when I was 9 years old, the age I started to menstruate, which is young. I was told by someone a long time ago, that I was probably very valuable as I was born into a generational cult, and I already knew how to keep my mouth shut. Also, for a catholic seminary to abuse a little Lutheran girl, I was probably quite the prize. I was their 'breeder" for years
I called them the "under under" as a child, as the tunnels I was abused in looked the the ones in the photos with dirt floors, not photos of St. Charles but very similar. "Under Under... meant that they were underneath the tunnels used by the students.
My abortions were performed here and my son was killed in these tunnels. I gave birth to a live son when I was 12. I had to murder my own son. He never had a birth certificate, as those involved would have prevented it and he never died on paper. . I know of at least three other women this has happened to, they gave birth and had to murder their child. I named my son "Matthew"
Someone a long time ago, asked if I were "for real" Why would I be telling all these things about myself, for ?? What purpose. To expose my vagina to the world? I have been called crazy and worse all these years, but my story has not changed in 30 years
I don't come to this site often, as for some reason I try to sign in on my cell phone, it won't let me
I have had district attorneys' to my home and more recently two agents from the attorney generals office. I have photos of their ID.
I have an email from the current DA in Philadelphia asking for any and all information, I will not share that as it is confidential.
Why the heck would I make this stuff up.
My main perpetrator has been reported by others, for child abuse as well as adult women rapes with violence. The bishop did nothing!!
There is nothing in this for me, I want to protect others. If the law changes for SOL in PA, I am probably aged out, but I don't want to see another life destroyed by this.. if you read my posts in "Philadelphia' I speak of these tunnels, I did not realize there were photos online
I found these the other evening, and it made me quite ill. I am not well, I have lupus and I spent the last two plus days in bed.
I was married in this hell whole to the 'priest'. I wore a white, felt like satin next to my bare skin, it was a pretty dress and it felt pretty to a little girl. I was allowed to bring my cat, Patches .. my sister named the male cat as he looked like he had patches sewn on him They skinned my cat alive. This was my first time taken there.
I saw children burned to death in incinerators. I was tied up and forced to watch this and 'if I told, this was going to happen to me.' These were street kids, at the time, today we would call them homeless or runaways or sex slaves. No one cared where they went or what happened to them.
As a child, I felt like I was taken in the middle of the night, it could have been 11 pm, for all I know. I also thought as a child it was a limo, it was a fancy black car. I sat in the back, mostly alone, at time with my girl friend, at that time. This girl friend grew up and threatened my life back in the 1980's. More later. I have corroboration but not enough to risk my life. She lives only a few miles from me, and I fear she is still cult active. This is why my life was threatened back in the late 80's as I was out of this hellish cult.
It was my 'girl friend's father' and my mother that enabled my being there. He was roman catholic, and my parents were good Lutherans, and I believe my own mother pimped me out. When she died, she left 1/2 million dollars to my dead sister's husband. Another long story.
I know I was woken from my sleep to go there, and I know I came back before Saturday, I believe it was always a Friday night. I honestly do not remember, yet, how I was woken from my sleep to go, but I can imagine, that memory is around the corner for me too. it is how this works.
There is nothing in this for me, no law suit, no settlement, I want to see it ended, because let's face it, you know it did not stop. I posted this on Facebook the other day, and a friend of mine, Jewish, who is about 20 years younger than myself, told me, he believed he was there as well. I am 65
Your are in my prayers. Your children too. I believe in a resurrection. I believe your kids will get another chance. I don’t know how you feel about the Bible. I’m certain that your abusers ignored it. I humbly offer this verse in hope that it comforts you.
John 5:28-29 “Do not be amazed at this, for the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out, those who did good things to a resurrection of life, and those who practiced vile things to a resurrection of judgment.”
In this case, I imagine the innocent count as “good”.
Beautiful passage thank you and thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers and concerns. i am just too tired to answer you all, but I appreciate each and everyone of you. God Bless all of us!!
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StcharlesSeminary ago
Thank you Carmencita for your diligence in getting this back on
I was ritually abused in these tunnels as a child from 1961 until about 1970 It started when I was 9 years old, the age I started to menstruate, which is young. I was told by someone a long time ago, that I was probably very valuable as I was born into a generational cult, and I already knew how to keep my mouth shut. Also, for a catholic seminary to abuse a little Lutheran girl, I was probably quite the prize. I was their 'breeder" for years
I called them the "under under" as a child, as the tunnels I was abused in looked the the ones in the photos with dirt floors, not photos of St. Charles but very similar. "Under Under... meant that they were underneath the tunnels used by the students.
My abortions were performed here and my son was killed in these tunnels. I gave birth to a live son when I was 12. I had to murder my own son. He never had a birth certificate, as those involved would have prevented it and he never died on paper. . I know of at least three other women this has happened to, they gave birth and had to murder their child. I named my son "Matthew"
Someone a long time ago, asked if I were "for real" Why would I be telling all these things about myself, for ?? What purpose. To expose my vagina to the world? I have been called crazy and worse all these years, but my story has not changed in 30 years
I don't come to this site often, as for some reason I try to sign in on my cell phone, it won't let me
I have had district attorneys' to my home and more recently two agents from the attorney generals office. I have photos of their ID.
I have an email from the current DA in Philadelphia asking for any and all information, I will not share that as it is confidential.
Why the heck would I make this stuff up.
My main perpetrator has been reported by others, for child abuse as well as adult women rapes with violence. The bishop did nothing!!
There is nothing in this for me, I want to protect others. If the law changes for SOL in PA, I am probably aged out, but I don't want to see another life destroyed by this.. if you read my posts in "Philadelphia' I speak of these tunnels, I did not realize there were photos online
I found these the other evening, and it made me quite ill. I am not well, I have lupus and I spent the last two plus days in bed.
I was married in this hell whole to the 'priest'. I wore a white, felt like satin next to my bare skin, it was a pretty dress and it felt pretty to a little girl. I was allowed to bring my cat, Patches .. my sister named the male cat as he looked like he had patches sewn on him They skinned my cat alive. This was my first time taken there.
I saw children burned to death in incinerators. I was tied up and forced to watch this and 'if I told, this was going to happen to me.' These were street kids, at the time, today we would call them homeless or runaways or sex slaves. No one cared where they went or what happened to them.
As a child, I felt like I was taken in the middle of the night, it could have been 11 pm, for all I know. I also thought as a child it was a limo, it was a fancy black car. I sat in the back, mostly alone, at time with my girl friend, at that time. This girl friend grew up and threatened my life back in the 1980's. More later. I have corroboration but not enough to risk my life. She lives only a few miles from me, and I fear she is still cult active. This is why my life was threatened back in the late 80's as I was out of this hellish cult.
It was my 'girl friend's father' and my mother that enabled my being there. He was roman catholic, and my parents were good Lutherans, and I believe my own mother pimped me out. When she died, she left 1/2 million dollars to my dead sister's husband. Another long story.
I know I was woken from my sleep to go there, and I know I came back before Saturday, I believe it was always a Friday night. I honestly do not remember, yet, how I was woken from my sleep to go, but I can imagine, that memory is around the corner for me too. it is how this works.
There is nothing in this for me, no law suit, no settlement, I want to see it ended, because let's face it, you know it did not stop. I posted this on Facebook the other day, and a friend of mine, Jewish, who is about 20 years younger than myself, told me, he believed he was there as well. I am 65
GreenDell144 ago
Your are in my prayers. Your children too. I believe in a resurrection. I believe your kids will get another chance. I don’t know how you feel about the Bible. I’m certain that your abusers ignored it. I humbly offer this verse in hope that it comforts you.
John 5:28-29 “Do not be amazed at this, for the hour is coming in which all those in the memorial tombs will hear his voice and come out, those who did good things to a resurrection of life, and those who practiced vile things to a resurrection of judgment.”
In this case, I imagine the innocent count as “good”.
StcharlesSeminary ago
Beautiful passage thank you and thank everyone for their thoughts and prayers and concerns. i am just too tired to answer you all, but I appreciate each and everyone of you. God Bless all of us!!