Haha, thanks love. I've posted a few times in the past few weeks on here, but am kind of scared to dig the way that I had been doing. Jesus christ. I had like a ... hmm. I dk wtf you'd call it. You know like (this is the best example I can give)- in some movies, there is an "investigator" or a main character that gets too obsessed/involved with whatever it is they are obsessing over? Suddenly everything becomes related to X, they see X everywhere (whether it is there or not), they have dreams (nightmares) about X, don't want to leave the house because of X, they start thinking that "they" are watching them investigate X, everyone starts voicing concerns over them because they think that they are getting too deep into X and they can see how it is affecting them, the realization that X isn't just a theme of low-budget movies- but the shit is real and it is FUCKING everywhere and it starts making you question the motives behind every single person in life that you have a relationship with....sorry. That still doesn't explain it.
It started feeling like life was literally just a movie and we were all just actors, but only 0.00000001% of us realized it. Nope. That doesn't do it either.
I dk man. Everything just became surreal. Morbid. Not worth getting out of bed for. Life felt fake and superficial. I dk. Maybe it was like a mild psychosis, or break from reality, or paranoid-schizo type shit that happened. I have never experienced any of that shit before, so I dk if that's what it was, but something in my brain got super fucked up.
There is still a lot of info that I have been wanting to post on here, but am (in a lame/p*ssy ass way) almost scared to- for multiple reasons.
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9217 ago
@Isthisreality where have you been, friend?! This invest. has missed your contributions!
isthisreality ago
Haha, thanks love. I've posted a few times in the past few weeks on here, but am kind of scared to dig the way that I had been doing. Jesus christ. I had like a ... hmm. I dk wtf you'd call it. You know like (this is the best example I can give)- in some movies, there is an "investigator" or a main character that gets too obsessed/involved with whatever it is they are obsessing over? Suddenly everything becomes related to X, they see X everywhere (whether it is there or not), they have dreams (nightmares) about X, don't want to leave the house because of X, they start thinking that "they" are watching them investigate X, everyone starts voicing concerns over them because they think that they are getting too deep into X and they can see how it is affecting them, the realization that X isn't just a theme of low-budget movies- but the shit is real and it is FUCKING everywhere and it starts making you question the motives behind every single person in life that you have a relationship with....sorry. That still doesn't explain it.
It started feeling like life was literally just a movie and we were all just actors, but only 0.00000001% of us realized it. Nope. That doesn't do it either.
I dk man. Everything just became surreal. Morbid. Not worth getting out of bed for. Life felt fake and superficial. I dk. Maybe it was like a mild psychosis, or break from reality, or paranoid-schizo type shit that happened. I have never experienced any of that shit before, so I dk if that's what it was, but something in my brain got super fucked up.
There is still a lot of info that I have been wanting to post on here, but am (in a lame/p*ssy ass way) almost scared to- for multiple reasons.
Godwillwin ago
This kind of happened to me too. I took a break Sunday through today and I feel a lot better.