Haha, thanks love. I've posted a few times in the past few weeks on here, but am kind of scared to dig the way that I had been doing. Jesus christ. I had like a ... hmm. I dk wtf you'd call it. You know like (this is the best example I can give)- in some movies, there is an "investigator" or a main character that gets too obsessed/involved with whatever it is they are obsessing over? Suddenly everything becomes related to X, they see X everywhere (whether it is there or not), they have dreams (nightmares) about X, don't want to leave the house because of X, they start thinking that "they" are watching them investigate X, everyone starts voicing concerns over them because they think that they are getting too deep into X and they can see how it is affecting them, the realization that X isn't just a theme of low-budget movies- but the shit is real and it is FUCKING everywhere and it starts making you question the motives behind every single person in life that you have a relationship with....sorry. That still doesn't explain it.
It started feeling like life was literally just a movie and we were all just actors, but only 0.00000001% of us realized it. Nope. That doesn't do it either.
I dk man. Everything just became surreal. Morbid. Not worth getting out of bed for. Life felt fake and superficial. I dk. Maybe it was like a mild psychosis, or break from reality, or paranoid-schizo type shit that happened. I have never experienced any of that shit before, so I dk if that's what it was, but something in my brain got super fucked up.
There is still a lot of info that I have been wanting to post on here, but am (in a lame/p*ssy ass way) almost scared to- for multiple reasons.
You described perfectly how I've been feeling this past week. That feeling of being so sucked in and seeing all of the shit, while simultaneously being helpless to cause any real sort of change.
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9217 ago
@Isthisreality where have you been, friend?! This invest. has missed your contributions!
isthisreality ago
Haha, thanks love. I've posted a few times in the past few weeks on here, but am kind of scared to dig the way that I had been doing. Jesus christ. I had like a ... hmm. I dk wtf you'd call it. You know like (this is the best example I can give)- in some movies, there is an "investigator" or a main character that gets too obsessed/involved with whatever it is they are obsessing over? Suddenly everything becomes related to X, they see X everywhere (whether it is there or not), they have dreams (nightmares) about X, don't want to leave the house because of X, they start thinking that "they" are watching them investigate X, everyone starts voicing concerns over them because they think that they are getting too deep into X and they can see how it is affecting them, the realization that X isn't just a theme of low-budget movies- but the shit is real and it is FUCKING everywhere and it starts making you question the motives behind every single person in life that you have a relationship with....sorry. That still doesn't explain it.
It started feeling like life was literally just a movie and we were all just actors, but only 0.00000001% of us realized it. Nope. That doesn't do it either.
I dk man. Everything just became surreal. Morbid. Not worth getting out of bed for. Life felt fake and superficial. I dk. Maybe it was like a mild psychosis, or break from reality, or paranoid-schizo type shit that happened. I have never experienced any of that shit before, so I dk if that's what it was, but something in my brain got super fucked up.
There is still a lot of info that I have been wanting to post on here, but am (in a lame/p*ssy ass way) almost scared to- for multiple reasons.
9217 ago
I do understand. I'm glad you're back :)
I know Nietzsche is a terrible guy to quote on this topic but.... "When you stare into the abyss, the abyss stares back" seems to apply...
isthisreality ago
Precisely. I actually thought of that quote more than once during that time. Dark shit, man.
Godwillwin ago
Is the info you've been wanting to post new info? Info we haven't uncovered yet here on voat?
Godwillwin ago
This kind of happened to me too. I took a break Sunday through today and I feel a lot better.
Flour ago
You described perfectly how I've been feeling this past week. That feeling of being so sucked in and seeing all of the shit, while simultaneously being helpless to cause any real sort of change.
isthisreality ago
Yeah. It was/is so surreal. I wish I could figure out a better way to explain it.
fuspezza ago
(https://youtu.be/YrtS2_TfbeY)) Can we get a /pizzagatecontributorspsychologicalhealt recovery sub for this two pussys haha...jkjk some tuff love from a brother in arms P.S Shoot Them in the belly https://youtu.be/NDAWaYu-YCo
shachalnur ago
Everybody does what he/she can
This is war
Fight or flee
Live or die
And the small issue of what you see in the mirror when this is over
How you will see the world and the world will see you
No fear
We're on the right side of history and are protected
isthisreality ago
<3