the fact that I was rude, irrational and acted like a small child

The first step to forgiveness is understanding what you did wrong.

Acceptance is found when you adjust to the reality of the truth of yourself.
Simply acknowledging this can lead you to a path of improvement, with very little effort.

Looking back now, the title could have definitely been worded more accurately and descriptively

Awesome, this is the kind of growth I'm hoping all contributors can get, even if they get knocked back a few times.
The key thing to remember; a deleted post is not a cutoff or exclusion, it's more of a "we know you can do better, try again, we're here to help you help us"

Your post (linked in another comment) is actually full of potential, but you need to tell us the story of why you think it's important, and why we the community, should care.
I personally know full well how brazenly in the open this filth operates, but we need to contextualize and frame the evidence in a way that collectively grows the pool of evidence through clear links.

take the advice of @kevdude and give it another go, also, use /v/pizzagatewhatever to get help and also to see if anyone shares your thoughts who can help dig up more