It’s embarrassing but it’s true, I just can’t keep it up. I’ve tried meditation, I’ve tried prayer, I’ve tried reaching out for help. Some solutions worked for a little while but nothing has remedied the underlying issue. No matter what I do, I simply just can’t keep it up. I expect most will be disappointed and let down, while others will just point and laugh. So be it, it’s a problem every man like me will face at some point.
One thing is true though, while I kept it up, it was glorious in many ways. It was the hardest (website to corrupt with CCP rules), it was the biggest (bundle of laughs ever… 4chan raids us and we didn’t even notice), it was bulging (with red pills and truth that you can’t find anywhere else), it was throbbing (with people eager to teach others the deception of the world). It’s so great in so many ways that it has a list of haters who will be extremely aroused by this post.
I know I’m going to get a hundred PMs from all of Voat’s hottest girls (Voat has some hot women, fact) with tips and tricks on how to help me keep it up. While I appreciate the concern and the offers of lending me a hand, we’re just going to have accept the situation for what it is- it’s just not going to be much fun for anyone.
/s (end of sarcasm)
What happened
I fight not being bitter and resentful. You see, this wasn’t supposed to happen, at least not now. The short of it is that the “Angel” defaulted on the contract in March 2020. This is when Voat lost all of it’s funding. I personally decided to keep Voat up until after the U.S. election of 2020. I’ve been paying the costs out of pocket but now I’m out of money.
A New Perspective
Instead of feeling pity or vengeful, I’m instead going to celebrate the fact that Voat stayed up for so long. In my opinion, Voat is and will always be the biggest dysfunctional family on the internet. Voat users were much more intimate with each other than other sites (chances are you have a handful of enemies and a handful of friends that you can list by name at a moment’s notice). Voat always had a better community dynamic than any other site on the internet. Considering everything, Voat was untouchable. There will never be another Voat and each of us had the opportunity to enjoy it. That’s awesome.
Some say life is worth it all if you can help just one single person. In this way I know Voat was worth it because you guys have changed thousands and thousands of people’s hearts and minds. You’ve made so many people aware of the lies taught as truth and the truth taught as conspiracy. It’s beautiful. What a great thing.
I love you all. Every single one of you. I hope you all have a life filled with overflowing joy and happiness. So many of you have been so selfless over the years, helping in so many ways. My heart is just touched when I think of all the good that was generated. Fucking love you guys (Say it in a slurred drunken voice).
Another great thing is that we stayed true over here on our end. Atko and I never betrayed our users. Never once. In fact, I can list example of example of how we ended up doing the right thing over what we wanted to do or what we felt like doing. I’ve come to find that doing the right thing is often the hardest thing. But we did it. We didn’t sell out and we passed the test.
The Sacrifice
I will lay Voat upon the cross on December 25th 2020 at 12 noon PST. I have chosen Christmas as the day to do so in honor of the only True thing you will find in this world and that is Jesus Christ, the son of God, and the only way to the Father. I chose 12 noon in honor of the twelve disciples who spread the message of salvation to the world. In this way, my hope is that perhaps 12 people will carry the cross for Freedom of Speech and sacrifice part of their lives for an ideal in the way I did, but hopefully with much more success, glory, and reward.
The Triumph of Defeat
It seems like a great time to share one of my favorite quotes, so I will leave it here.
It is not the critic who counts; not the man who points out how the strong man stumbles, or where the doer of deeds could have done them better.
The credit belongs to the man who is actually in the arena, whose face is marred by dust and sweat and blood; who strives valiantly; who errs, who comes short again and again, because there is no effort without error and shortcoming; but who does actually strive to do the deeds; who knows great enthusiasms, the great devotions; who spends himself in a worthy cause; who at the best knows in the end the triumph of high achievement, and who at the worst, if he fails, at least fails while daring greatly, so that his place shall never be with those cold and timid souls who neither know victory nor defeat.
For those who I’ve let down, please forgive me. I’m sorry Atko. I love you like a brother.
Edit:
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You guys crack me up, even now you accuse me of being mossad or a honey pot. If I keep it up or shut it down I'm the same thing. Damned if you do, damned it you don't.
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Trust me, I want to drop every dirty detail about the Angel and the act of betrayal that Voat has suffered. But it is written:
Dearly beloved, avenge not yourselves, but rather give place unto wrath: for it is written, "Vengeance is mine; I will repay", saith the Lord. Romans 12:19
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Do not say, “I will do to him as he has done to me; I will pay the man back for what he has done.” Proverbs 24:29
- The secret reality of the world we live in is that winners and losers are chosen by the power structure. If you don't play the game, you don't get any prizes (aka $$$). Shutting down is the consequence of not compromising ideals.
I chose a noble death.
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B3bomber ago
Where is there free speech to go to?
toggafreggin ago
Your local church, hardware store, farmers market, gun range, grocery store...
B3bomber ago
Niggerville, niggers, don't have, definitely don't have, niggerville 2.
toggafreggin ago
Are your legs fuckin painted on boy? Get the fuck out of there! I hear Texas is nice.
B3bomber ago
Nerve damage, poor. That's why I'm not going to be among the fighting. I'm technically among the dying.
toggafreggin ago
That's what they told me 12 years ago. Naturopathic and Eastern medicine, Wim Hof method, and more gumption than is healthy, and I kick ass for a guy with spikes of bone stabbing into his brain stem and thyroid, blood pressure that makes nurses faint, blown out shoulders and knees, and a shitload of other old injuries that flare up everytime a cloud comes by.
Lack of money kind of poor is hard to fix without selling your soul. Lack of resources kind of poor is easy to fix by practicing gift economy. Share any excess of anything you have, even if it's just time, doing nice things for nice people, and you'll never have to worry about going without again.
B3bomber ago
All I have is knowledge.
A bonespur directly in my spine so I can relate to that. My blood pressure is the low kind that makes doctors pale along with a heart rate drops 50s and lower.
toggafreggin ago
Take a salt pill(possibly literally), pretend a tiger's chasing you, and walk it off.
They told me I'd be dead or paralyzed at any second, if I didn't get surgery, in 2010. I spent 6 years working when I could and recovering for days to months in between, and really started figuring out how to manage it over the last five years.
The book Mind Over Back Pain, by John Sarno didn't really apply to me because I can see the spurs in the imaging, and it definitely seemed like quackery, but when I got into archaeology and anthropology, I saw so many skeletons that were grossly disfigured by accidents and repetitive injury, but still lived long lives, despite the lack of healthcare and nutritional knowledge, that I made up my mind that I was either going to be fine, or go out with dignity trying, and from then on, I've been getting better and better.
Today, I lifted two 850 lb truck frame rails off the ground and onto sawhorses, and disassembled ten old school, rusty split rims. I might shit the couch and die at any second, but everyone can definitely say I went down swingin.
B3bomber ago
Heh. I did add more salt to my food after that. My nerve damage is my entire body (I figured out where that came from, it was caused by an external event and just happens to have degraded to the point it is noticeable). The doctors didn't really give me any kind of treatment or even mention surgery. I'm just supposed to die, without pain pills to top it off.
As for my heart, it really doesn't beat properly anymore. I can't fully feel the total damage because I've lost sensory and control functions to various degrees. If I overdo it, I know about it from the lovely sensation of going into shock and fighting to stay conscious.
I miss my workout.
toggafreggin ago
If you want to get better, I can't recommend the Wim Hof method enough. Just the breathing if the cold seems intolerable, but the cold is a big part of it.
If you do it religiously, and you want to get better, you will heal.
I can't get into all of the details and science here, but when my neck gets out of whack bad, and the inflammation gets bad enough that it gets stuck, I can have all night long seizures, arrythmia, heart stoppages for 5 minutes or more, uncontrollable dry heaving, incontinence.....litteral hell on Earth, and as long as I keep doing the breathing, I stay alive, pass out, the swelling goes down, I wake up, reset my atlas, take a few days to rest, and I'm back in the game.
B3bomber ago
I will look into that. Thanks.
toggafreggin ago
Best of luck with it.
B3bomber ago
It kinda sounds like how I breathe normally to an extent. There was a point when I lived at a higher elevation than where I am now.
toggafreggin ago
If you do it right, you'll see energy beings, in a good way.