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zyklon_b ago

yeah its hard to blackmail those that are proud of their accomplishments

TheBuddha ago

Damned right.

If I made a porn vid online, I not only want to see it, I want it published.

zyklon_b ago

I feel the same and several years ago sent some out via text messages so im certain some tweaker uploaded em

TheBuddha ago

Oh, I'm sure there are dick pics out there. But they specified videos. LOL I don't remember making any videos. I hope I did!

zyklon_b ago

the ones I made was just my dick goin into a pussy and ass and then mouth from my pov. so no face shots on my end

TheBuddha ago

I don't even have a clue. I have zero memory of making online porn vids.

I don't even care if my face is in them.

zyklon_b ago

I don't either and looking back in hindsight was a mistake not uploading em and putting my face in cause she was hot and I fucked the shit out of and degraded her big time

TheBuddha ago

I dunno? I haven't a clue. Like I said, I don't even remember making them.

I used to get really fucked up. There are periods of my life that I didn't remember. I also went on quite a bender when I retired.

zyklon_b ago

I think itd be hilarious for shit to come out. if it happens put it on voat

TheBuddha ago

I'd giggle.

zyklon_b ago

yeah itd be cool

TheBuddha ago

Shit, if the videos pop up, I'll link 'em myself. I ain't scared. The missus isn't going to give a shit, 'cause it wouldn't have been with her.

zyklon_b ago

same here if mine pop up im linking. I mean my pic already up here and every chick that sees it keep talking to me so I figure a sex tape would probably score me even more pusssy pics

TheBuddha ago

Valid point! I don't have trouble getting laid. I am not sure why some people do. My last girlfriend was 19 when we hooked up. She was older than the one before that, who was just 18 when we hooked up. The one before that was in her early 20s. They're all gorgeous, as well.

Hell, the current missus is in her fifties but you'd not know it. She's never had kids and is pretty damned cute. She's not even cute for her age, she's cute.

zyklon_b ago

cool. I aint ever had no problem getting ass either. anymore it aint worth the emotional stress and compromises of entering into relaltionships especially wh en they come to understand aint no changing me and aint getting a job! lol lots of sluts get real tough when they realize you aint gonna even attempt to support em

TheBuddha ago

LOL I support them. I have never needed a girlfriend to have a job. They can, I'm sure as shit not going to stop them. However, they don't need to. I will support them. I will even support their drug habits.

I should explain. All my girlfriends, even if they're short-term, are known as the missus. Not all the women I've had sex with were girlfriends. Some were the mistress and others were just fuck buddies or one-night stand types of relationships. So, they're all the missus.

I don't want the missus to have to work, so that she's able to be home and to do things on my schedule. I don't care if they have civic functions that they attend, so long as it doesn't fuck with my schedule - or lack of a schedule. If I say, "I want to go to NY this weekend." I want them to be able to join me. If I say that I want to spend all day in bed and doing nothing, I don't want them to have to call into work and lie to their boss about why they're not showing up that day.

They can work. I don't even try to stop 'em. I just prefer it if they don't. In return, I will support them. I will ensure their needs and reasonable wants are met. I will ensure they are financially set to the point where they don't need a job.

I did this even before I had much money. I'd work my job to pay for my family and my missus. I'd then work a second job to support my recreational needs. Which is why I was a performing musician for so long.

See? Now you know the reasons and the whole story!

zyklon_b ago

I do see. if I was able to afford it id not allow em to work at all except like around the farm or mowing and shit

TheBuddha ago

Oh, I don't stop them. There's no "let" involved. I'm not that kind of guy.

I have a set of rule that I live by. They're expected to accommodate. I insist on only a few things. They must be honest, open, and communicative. Those are the requirements to qualify to be a potential missus. I don't tell them how to do it. Only that those are the minimum standards that I hold.

zyklon_b ago

oh they are good standards to judge by

TheBuddha ago

They're the minimum that I require.

There's lots of other women, but very few are eligible to be the missus. That's okay. I've had plenty of relationships where they were just short term flings and meaningless. Those have a time and a place.

zyklon_b ago

all mine tend to be short and meaningless.

TheBuddha ago

I have loved very few, but I've appreciated many. I've been in lust, lots of times. I've been in love very seldom.

I'm convinced that I never really know it's love until after it's over. I'm okay with that. I'm okay with being in lust.

I don't even tell the missus that I love her. I don't know if I do. I'm very fond of her. I'd like to stay with her forever, but that seems REALLY unlikely. Hell, I'll even make sure she's financially set if she leaves. I will continue to provide her with money until after she finds a good job, even after we break up. I will treat her better than the courts would treat her if we were married with a pre-nup. The car she drives is pretty much still brand new and in her name. The insurance is paid automatically. She has a debit card that is attached to an account and I just keep it restocked and don't even really pay attention to her spending. (She's remarkably frugal when it comes to her own needs/wants.)

She has a house that she got from a divorce. It's not paid off, so I pay the mortgage every month. I'd like to just pay it off entirely, but she won't let me. She keeps saying shit like she's going to sell the house and give me the money to "pay me back." I tell her she shouldn't do that. I don't have a history of staying together with girlfriends. Her house is her safety net. It's somewhere for her to go when the probable event occurs.

History says I've broken up with every single other girlfriend. It seems pretty damned likely that I'll eventually end up breaking up with her, or that she'll get sick of my shit and leave. It'd be nice if she had a place to go. She probably shouldn't sell her house. If she does, she sure as shit shouldn't give me the money.

Regardless, I'll take care of her after she's gone. Well, that assumes she doesn't do shit like try to burn my house down on the way out. That assumes we part on reasonably good terms.

That's one of the benefits of having a few bucks. I realize most people can't do that. I can do that.

In fact, I paid the last missus to go the fuck away. I paid her to go back to her family where she came from.

zyklon_b ago

damn dude its crazy to think you are able to afford shit like that. I cannot even imagine not having to scrape of change and food stamps to feed daughter!!!! Well I can imagine!!!!!!!

good morning buddhA

TheBuddha ago

I have been pretty poor. I am no longer poor.

zyklon_b ago

I figured that's why you understand and like me cause you was just smart enough to make it out

TheBuddha ago

I have scrounged for change to buy ramen noodles, literally. I never let my kids go hungry, so after they were born things changed a lot. Still, they ate a lot of boxed Mac and Cheese, sandwiches, etc...

And, as for making it out, it wasn't totally due to skill or anything. I just happened to be in the right place at the right time. I got lucky, in a lot of ways.

Prior to that, I was still just middle class. I used to still perform because I needed the extra money. I had not just my family to support, I had about 250 employees and I was responsible for making sure they could feed their families.

My take home pay, my last year, was $107,000. I was paying for a house in the burbs, a full time nanny, a car, insurance, and food. I was also saving up for my daughter's tuition and saving for retirement.

At the end of each week, I had maybe $50 in my pocket. That'd not even support my beer habit, never mind buy my drugs. So, I kept performing as a second job.

I actually paid some of my employees more than I paid myself.

It sounds like a lot of money, but I had a lot of expenses.

Prior to selling and retiring, that's the BEST I was ever at. That's the absolute richest I was while still working. That was after many years below the poverty line. Yes, I was below the poverty line.

I was never reduced to food stamps, but I was really close. WIC helped and we used that. The kids also had Medicare, or whatever it is called, until I started making more money. So didn't my wife, but the VA covered me.

I've been pretty fucking poor. I've borrowed money to eat. I've gone hungry. I've worked manual labor jobs.

I'm not one of those fucksticks that was born into money. I know the value of a dollar. I've had times when I had zero dollars in my pocket.

I won't say that I understand your situation. I don't. I've never been in your shoes.

I will say I can relate. I've experienced some not so good living.

zyklon_b ago

check this out from a leftover Obama policy I got a $30 raise in welfare but due to TRump new rule I lost $50 in food stamp due to "pay increase" WTF!!! punishing the weakest while cutting taxes for corporate friends much!!!

TheBuddha ago

LOL Trump cut my taxes quite a bit. I didn't actually need them cut, but whatever.

zyklon_b ago

see exactly what I was trying to convey as to me that cut for food is very shitty, I will be ok as hoping knee allows me to do some manual labor and make up deficit + get high

TheBuddha ago

Getting high is actually important, I think.

zyklon_b ago

some play golf or go fish or hog hunt but as for me I escape a different way!!!!!!!!!

TheBuddha ago

I can relate and escaping is a part of being human.

TheBuddha ago

I can relate to you.

zyklon_b ago

good morniong

TheBuddha ago

\o

zyklon_b ago

whats up ? are you high? dude i just found a stash i had hidden like in july but long since had forgotten where i hid it till bam bam!!

TheBuddha ago

Yeah, sorta high. I had my PT already this morning. They all want me to eat opiates and say that I'm wrong, that the pain is actually still a problem.

I pay them good money. They are good physicians. They are all the best in the business, in my area. They all know about my history with opiates.

So, I trust them. I will listen to them. I'm not going to do things AMA. What's the point of me getting the best advice money can buy if I'm not going to listen to it?

And, because my tolerance has increased, I've taken 10 mg of oxy and another 4 mg of diluadid.

A little high. I should be high as balls, but I'm not. Stupid tolerance!

Anyhow, what'd you find?

zyklon_b ago

four 10mg hydrocodone in a drawer that i just had not thought to open for a very long time

TheBuddha ago

M367!

zyklon_b ago

xactly now is time for some bisquits and gravy. damn man physical therapy helping mobility or is it too soon to tell?

TheBuddha ago

I make slow improvements. This morning, I was able to put my socks on without needing my sock tool.

And, I don't like to eat if I'm trying to get an opiate buzz. Eating kills the buzz.

zyklon_b ago

i find the gravy helps rid stomach of last night alcohol leftover type belly ache type feelings

TheBuddha ago

...

That's what the opiates are for! They make that problem go away!

If you have a problem still, eat omeprazole and not food. Food ruins a perfectly good buzz!

LOL

When I went to the hospital during my WD from the IV fent, I was down to 136 pounds. I'm usually 172. This morning, I was at 158. Which means I've stopped losing weight. I gained a couple of pounds back but now I'm stuck at this weight. I need to eat more. But, if I'm going to eat opiates then I want to enjoy the high!

It's quite a conundrum.

zyklon_b ago

i just got my p.t. done being stacked a lot of firewood on porch.

TheBuddha ago

Nice. Do you still have your Christmas stash?

zyklon_b ago

yeah is still put away and will not be touched

TheBuddha ago

I will be REALLY impressed if you make it to Christmas and still have them.

If I were in your shoes, I'd not be able to do that. I'm 99.9% confident that I'd be unable to do that.

By the third hour of going without, I'd be into that stash. If you can do it, you're stronger than I am with this specific situation. I'll be really, really impressed.

zyklon_b ago

yeah its a feat of will power. How i will break weak is if i drink a few beers and get lowering inhibitions as i stare at the xmas tree and think on em

TheBuddha ago

Yeah, those would go in my face pretty quickly. About the time I run out will be about the time I start pondering my stash.

At first it'll be like, "Well, I'll just do half of one. I'll save the rest." Then, "This isn't even getting me high. I'm going to do a full one." Then, "Well, I'll still be fine with just two on Christmas."

Yeah, I'd fail that test.

zyklon_b ago

sometimes failing is winning

TheBuddha ago

The worst part is that I'd probably end up spacing them out, taking only small amounts at a time, and I'd never actually get high from it!

I really couldn't do what you're doing, if I were in your shoes.

I'd run out, have no money for more, and do them. I'd not be able to restrain myself. That's not true when I was sober, of course. It's true when I'm using. Right now, I'm addicted again. I'd definitely be using them.

zyklon_b ago

I understand the urge just luckily I am not what I consider dependent on em right now

TheBuddha ago

I am, again.

LOL I wonder if I can make insurance pay for mu Suboxone? The accident caused me to use opiates which caused my addiction.

My lawyer has $5,000,000 in insurance, with just his car insurance. My total is about $600,000 right now, that I know of. I still have more bills incoming.

That leaves me a pretty big cushion. I am pretty sure I can make them pay for it.

zyklon_b ago

yeah they will pay for it here but not with Medicaid. best to just pay cash so dr can be more liberal in prescribing n with the piss tests

TheBuddha ago

Yeah, this is an insurance company. So, I'm not too worried. I bet they do pay for it. I don't see why they wouldn't.

I paid for the last round with cash. I might as well make someone else pay for it this time!

zyklon_b ago

yeah aint no reason not to. shit by that time you may have changed mind about the subs!!!!!!

TheBuddha ago

Maybe. I really don't want to be opiated for life.

Once upon a time, I could maintain pretty well. I was good at maintaining. I chipped, even using daily, for decades.

Then, I lost that ability. I can no longer maintain.

zyklon_b ago

I got similar impulse control issues wit da meff so I just try to stay the fuck away from it. its hard bein a drug attic!!!!!!

TheBuddha ago

Yeah, I can't maintain anymore. I crossed that boundary...

zyklon_b ago

im just glad i can still use opioids recreationally cause is way better than stimulants in my opinion

TheBuddha ago

I love me some opiates.

zyklon_b ago

never mind i member 15

TheBuddha ago

?

zyklon_b ago

i was thinking how many months you have till ozzy!!! if you stick with the physical therapy its very fucking possible

TheBuddha ago

It is! It'd be awesome if I'm well enough to host company for a weekend. There's no sense in coming up for just a single day, that'd be stupid. Besides, we're going to need a few hotel rooms anyhow.

I'll find out this weekend and the whole band might come with me. I'm not sure if they want to AND if there's enough VIP tickets left.

The concert is in Bangor, Maine. I'm way over in Rangeley, Maine. Ain't no way in hell we're making the drive back to my place that night. That's just not happening. So, hotel rooms are going to be a requirement.

zyklon_b ago

hell yeah !!!!!!! i was looking throught the seating and appears the vip section be safest as far getting leg smashed

TheBuddha ago

LOL You found the concert, did you?

zyklon_b ago

yeah!!! was not hard

TheBuddha ago

No, but I didn't imagine you'd be that motivated. It's a nice venue. I've been there before. VIP is the best place to be, really.

zyklon_b ago

lol oh i am highly motivated!!!!! this is coolest thing in Voat history

TheBuddha ago

Probably! I'm hoping I'm well enough to entertain for a weekend. I'm hoping that I go on my feet and not in a wheelchair.

zyklon_b ago

this is very likely the last time Ozzy tours

TheBuddha ago

Yeah, that's pretty much why I'm going. I don't actually expect the performance to be all that good. I'm going out of respect and to have a good time.

zyklon_b ago

Yeah it will be epic regardless of his abilities.

TheBuddha ago

Yeah, I haven't seen him in years. I'd like to see him one last time, before he rides off into the sunset.

zyklon_b ago

he deserves a Viking funeral aboard an aircraft carrier

TheBuddha ago

Okay, but he has to pay for it himself.

zyklon_b ago

gtg talk with ya later

zyklon_b ago

he has plenty I am certain

TheBuddha ago

Yeah, though carriers are expensive.

zyklon_b ago

yeah. what date did you say was ozzy?

zyklon_b ago

honey buns n bisquits n gravy and a lot of deer meat and root beer got me up to most i ever weighed at 165 now

TheBuddha ago

I usually eat a lot. Not when I'm high, however.

zyklon_b ago

i enjoy food too.

zyklon_b ago

same bro. staying high is more than just a hobby is a lifestyle...

TheBuddha ago

I am high right now. They told me to go back on the opiates, at least for this week. I'm still in too much pain to stop.

I can refuse, but that's AMA. I will trust my doctors. I got a second opinion and that doctor called me a fucking idiot and a stubborn old bastard. Err... She's my daughter, but she does deal with taking care of a lot of pain. She works on an pediatric trauma/ICU ward.

zyklon_b ago

im on oxy n pot took a trip into OK today. gotta go windows says update in 4 minutes later komrade