This post has stuck with me. I originally read it at 3 AM, along with all of the comments. Many of us feel the same; those who have a denier spouse makes it even more difficult. We need a Q dating site, and other ways to meetup in real life. I started some Meetups, but they were all cancelled by the liberal Meetup NPCs. Christian Churches even figure out how to illegally meet around the world; we should be able to figure out how to meet up in person. I will be reaching out to meet more like-minded locals.

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I feel so much of a sense of losing reality over all of this. The only thing I want to do is teach my son to enjoy nature. To learn how to live off the land and learn how to live an unplugged life. There could be pockets where he can pull that off. I'm so ill equipped. And any sense of community i have is here with anons... it's maddening...

disillusioned, but also believe that it is up to us to provide good and right thinking, to point out the lies to other people.

Now all I do is sit around here (and various other conspiracy forums) and look for news of "The Event". I'm waiting for that one trigger event that will end this whole corrupt system.

Wow. That is truly fucking pathetic. And paralysing you and ruining your life is exactly what these retarded conspiracies were designed to do.

this is almost exactly how I think and what I've been through except that my husband is still living in the fake world. He will not see the light no matter what I show and tell him. I do not understand him anymore. Him and I have grown apart. ALL my other friends, family and even my neighbors are also living in the fake world. I have NO ONE to talk to who knows the truth. I have carried the awareness about Pizzagate for over 2 years, I accidentally found out about it digging into dirt on Hillary before the elections, trying to convince people not to vote her in. I have lost friends, I have been "defriended" on FB, I have been ridiculed by my family and husband. Some days its almost too much to handle. I am trapped in a place where I am patiently waiting for the truth to hit everyone upside the head, hoping and praying for the day. I still "redpill" people on a regular basis, but have to watch my step. People are so fragile, their world is going to be flipped upside down, if and when the truth is finally exposed......

Yes, I’m moving in that direction. I’m fortunate enough to have plenty of money and can make plenty more pretty much under the radar. The more I discover about this fake world, the more I want to withdraw and “walk between the raindrops”. If Q ends up being bullshit and no “big event” for good ever happens, I will withdraw even more. This world is all fake. It’s all controlled by the bad guys. They get away with anything and everything, folks like us go to jail for jaywalking. So fuck ‘em. I’ll start pulling my money. I’ll dick with them any way I can while keeping quiet and out of site.

Feel the same way every day. Big corporate player and quit job and never going back. Its all a lie.

understood

OP, if you are able to function comfortably that way, more power to you. You are closer to true freedom than the majority. With the benefit of hindsight I would have done many things differently regarding a mortgage and likely rented as inexpensively as possible while buying good arable land in a rural location. Although you don't say it specifically, you actually used the "system" to your advantage and got out of it long before you adopted the yoke of voluntary servitude via compound interest.

Find God. That'll help. He's waiting....

With you. I'm still fighting to drop out. Very fortunate you are. I was ready to drop out before I got the big job, now I'm chasing the money to buy my freedom so to speak. But I think many are on the same path to where you are. As a former someone in the know let me tell you that the earth is flat. You mentioned aliens... just wanted to help you along the way a little more. Also the Bible 100% fact. Jesus called out the cannibalism of the pharisees back then. He's been the most anti jewish jew of all who could be called jews ever.

I think you nailed it......this resonates with so many people.

welcome in the club ;) been there for the past 40 years... realized already as a child that everybody around me lives in a world of lies and strives for meaningless shit. family, career, house, car, insurances, it all felt fake to me so i never gave it much energy. stay out of the system as much as possible - no loans, credit cards, mortgages, its all a cage.

I'm waiting for that one trigger event that will end this whole corrupt system

as i see it, it is coming in installments, smaller events here and there. the one trigger event you are waiting for may be the crash or nationalization of the FED. we need to end the central banking system, thats the biggest slavery ever.

I feel the same way. Not financially secure though, but thanks for the Grace of God, and Jesus Christ I don't worry too much. You still have a little more to go down that rabbit hole when you really see things and then you will really know the Truth and power of the Word. Many great leaders in the last 100 years speak about Truth, even the bad ones. (Churchill, Kennedy, Bush, Obama, Trump, etc.)

Read then re-read several times the New Testament, compare different versions like KJV, NIV, ESV, etc etc , discover the changes made in scripture. Ask yourself why? examples are wolf with lamb or lion and lamb? ravens or eagles? Society of Jesuits?

When you discover this Bible is not a fairy tale world you will have that oh s.... moment. The abyss is real and it is looking back. Not good.

That the Bible is actually alive and changing and one day God will take it all away if we don't get our act together.

Too much to write, just a push in the right direction.

God Bless you.

As soon as I saw 'used to love moviews'.. I knew.. he's been awoken. Go for your Fiat money, your big screen telly, your football and fast food. It used to be called Circus and Bread. Why do you want to operate in a world that's geared to a few elite pedophiles, your sweat and blood for their pleasure and aisance. Why do you want to keep paying interest on something that doesnt even physically exist.
But you have to get away from all that, you see it as a 'fake' world, think of it more as a prison construct. what do you want to do now you're free?

I'm with you, so much of this rings true in my life.

Hey buddy!

Quit my well paid dev job at a big well known IT company in spring 2017 as well. I felt I was a middle class tax slave donkey working for the state, bailed out banks, the CEO and shareholders. Working five days a week, only the last day of the week was my share. I became a contractor to be more in control of my own life. No more robbing on my labor added value to maintain banks, African refugees and other imported scum I didn't vote for. Downsized my way of living to the max too. No more mercedes lease car driving, no more buying of luxury goods. Partially living on my home grown food, SHTF-supply, and some early bought crypto. Mainly spending on mortgage, insurance and food. When Q came along I quit working full time.

Since then doing a lot of (Q-)research, learning new skills, started meditating, waiting for the matrix to collapse. Social life is a bit lonely after Q, but after his last posts today I feel good!

Stay strong!

Brother, you should not feel that there is something wrong with the way you used to live. You can enjoy live and go after nice things if that is what makes you happy. The key is to go after what is in your heart. A lof of "nice" things are made by people with passion and integrity. There is no shame in supporting this. I recommend getting into Bashar and listening to Brad Johnson to balance out the negativity that focusing on these Lucifarians brings.

Yes! Exactly! It’s sooooo painful to listen to family and friends who have no idea what’s going on. It makes me feel sick. I was trying to wrap my head around the right words after the typical family Thanksgiving where I basically duck politics because it’s frustrating to hear smart people walking around with blinders on. I’m waiting for the Moab to drop & wake them up. God only knows how this will play out. I admire the way you’ve withdrawn & become self sufficient. You’re not alone!

Same to me!!!! Thank you!

Fuck it.. Party on.. You have to get along... Have fun don't talk to peoplw about conspiracy... They don't have to know everything..

WOW! what an incredibly strong statement! One of the most impressive articles I've read here! Wow, Anon!!!!

You are incredibly straight and consistent. Admirable!

So feeling this - thanks for your honesty and eloquence!

I know exactly how you feel and ive only been reading up on so called conspiracy theories since August! My daughters looked at me as if i was nuts as did my work mates...all bar one who filled in the blanks for me and i introduced him to Q. Slowly my eldest started asking me to send her videos and links to the stuff i was talking about and now shes more than woke! My youngest dughter who is 19 and at uni is having none of it..she cant see past her dislike for Trump. Says she believes in the trafficking side of it but i loose her when i mention satanism...but i see a slight shift in her stance with it, which i'll take. Like you i just cant relate to the "normal" way of life now..never want to set foot in a cinema...no longer have main strea tv at home..refuse to pay for a tv licence which you need here to watch the BBC..aka Westminster propaganda machine...I just want to talk about world affairs and the evil in the world and wee Jeanie just wants to talk about the X factor!
On the plus side ive just finished a nightshift and was talking about "the plan" when my wokmate said "ohh i heard about that Qanon last night on the tv...on a Louis Theroux program" He interviewed an American lady who followed Q and she was in tears because she got so passionate about it. Q my chance at showing her the Q the plan to save the world video ...not quite red pilled but shes paying attention now...drip feed works a treat! I hope you find your way back into the real world and just think of the people who will look to you knowledge and understanding of something your an expert on

There are bad people in the world,

always have been always will be, it dosn't mean you need to run off to a log cabin become a hermit and drink your own piss...

Much better to stand up for truth and tell people, point out the disjoints in what is being shoveled...

it only exists as not enough people see straight through it, as soon as you see the emperor has no clothes his power evaporates, if all you ever achieve is to allow one other person to recognize it for what it is its still a win you wouldn't have in your log cabin drinking piss wine...

Yup. My story is very similar.

You are not alone... I can still “function” because I have to, for my kids’ sake. But I feel like you describe everyday. I am lucky that a few coworker, my wife and a few friends all know the truth... I have minimal interaction with NPCs otherwise. I am behind enemy lines, in NPC country. Being pro trump can get you in trouble.

It does feel that way sometimes. Glad we have here to vent.

Don’t base any of yourself on Q. For you see, Q is a fraud.

I have WOKE tons of people at work. Besides doing what I do, I constantly inform people. For me, it’s nice to see those rusty gears in normie’s heads start to grind away again thinking on some aspect of the lie I have revealed to them. Remember, Q says these people will need us most of all when the lie (Great Deception) is revealed.

Yep! Felt like that many years ago. Cashed my chips and bailed halfway around the world. I now live in a small beach/resort town. No rape, murder, arson, drive-by shootings or road rage in 10 years and counting. My wife and son are happy and safe. Hang in there...patriot! WWG1WGA

I can't thank you enough for making this post. I feel better knowing there are lots of individuals who are all feeling this way right now. Hold fast, lads!!!

I can understand 100% your point. With that said, Jesus never said to pull away from society and specifically you have the knowledge and wisdom that other people lack. We are called as difficult as it is to be part of society and interact not hide away. Even many churches have many major problems with not teaching what Jesuwanted us to hear and know- I would not go if it was not for our Sunday bible study class. I pray you can see the value of those who are lost - I get it but we are called to show them grace.

Basically, what we are all suffering from is being Neo in the Matrix, taking the Red Pill, being shown the illusion/delusion, being plugged back into the Matrix and then being expected to work a 9-5 job....

It's not going to fucking happen.

I've been deconstructing the Matrix from within the Matrix for years now....

It's bad but nowhere near as bad as other times in history. we have more tools available to us as individuals than anytime in history. sure things are ugly and probably get more so but have some perspective. this is not the dark age, if anything this is the beginning of the age of light so to speak. opportunities and challenges.

I get where you're coming from! It's hard to know what is really happened/what has happened and still carry on in the "normie-verse". But where we differ is that I feel maintaining the relationship with the "normies" and even the fully brainwashed, is still important.

Why?

It's our job to help bring them back to reality once this all breaks. What we'll all be collectively returning to will be far easier for people like us to understand/navigate through.

The post-awakening period will allow people like us to help out significantly. And that's all we need to do.

I wish I could tell you how much I relate to this and you

Knowing the truth can be an affliction.

Hang in there buddy. At least you are living life on your own terms. Think of all the people that are still lost. You are wealth of knowledge. Be the Johnny Appleseed of info. Cast seeds of truth far and wide. You never know which ones will grow. A lot of other people are still blinded by the system, by the obligations of life which are artificial. I know it sucks to try to talk to them, I live in an extremely liberal area. But there are still good people in the masses of asleep sheep. If we are going to make it out of this dangerous crossroads, we will need everyone who has a good heart and is motivated to do good things.

Just remember they might be on the same path you are on but they are just a few steps behind. I still think that until the ball drops, people still have a chance to wake up and get right with humanity vs. globalism. Who knows, we might still make it out of this. I heard they found a microbe that converts radioactive material into no hazardous material.

Sometimes it’s tempting to take the blue pill and go back to sleep. But you know what? There are no blue pills. You can’t unlearn what you have learned, not without wrecking your brain. That’s why many knowingly refuse to take the red pill.

By the amount of comments "We are many". I have a 4.5 years of alimony to pay or I would be living in my cabin in the woods right now.

Not a bot, and you are not alone. Red pilled in about 2003 on a 9/11 video, and went through a similar pattern without bailing out of the system, but still wearily grinding song searching for the purpose to all this and waiting for the final Q to drop. Q is either a legitimate service to humanity with divine protection or the Devil’s last laugh, but there is no doubting the ‘legitimacy’ of the source. Here’s hoping the truth will set us free, (cheers)!

Patriot - you have hit a nerve. This is one of the most read drops on QRV. My 2 cents: Businesswoman. As active as you sounded. Met MI guy and dated briefly after 911. Said to me, "If you knew what I know is going on, you wouldn't be able to go to work every day." Began to think he was a little nuts and broke it off. Now I wish I could find him. He was right. I'm getting to retirement age, not as set as you, but may sell home and get to a place that's safer with less costs. Been a prepper since 911. At least the MI guy had that effect on me. Told me what we have all figured out here: the Bush-Clinton-Obama cartel is all one big evil. Hollywood is evil. Been reading what another patriot posted about Svali - http://educate-yourself.org/mc/mcsvaliinterviewpt1.shtml And I'm beginning to realize it's even worse than we thought.

So, yeah, need to find good support teams within this community who are real and not James Corsi's... Hard to do when you don't really know who to trust.

One thought came to me while reading your notes - Beware the Hall of Mirrors. If you stare too long into a mirror, you begin to question what is real and what is the mirrored image. Or as Nietzsche said in Beyond Good and Evil.

"He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster.

And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee."

Recommendation - make an agreement with yourself that you will step away from Q and Voat at least once a week for an entire day. Limit the number of hours you are online with this. It's actually good that most of us can only upvote 10 posts and post 10 times. It forces a break. We are no good as warriors if we are all fucked up. And we need to go outside and enjoy the world as it is.

As for those who don't get it, I have freed myself from trying. I occasionally toss in an oblique reference to see the reaction. If the person shows a sign of recognition and interest, I'll go further. If they fight it or push back with how wonderful obummer is or how it's too bad Hitlery didn't win, I just say, "Hmmm." Then I change the subject. Pearls before swine and all that.

I also have never been a True Believer. I don't think POTUS or Q are infallible. I am a realist and practical. I know I need to take care of myself. I have plans to leave the country if it all falls apart. I also know and accept there is a minute, tiny, teensy, 3% chance we Q followers might be being played to put a military govt into power. A benevolent one from the looks of it, but still... I have lived for a short time in a military dictatorship and eventually those go downhill. So in the event that happens, again, I'm outta here.

What I know for sure are these truths:
1. Nothing is every completely as it looks 2. There are really, really, really bad, evil people on the planet and some of them are in power with a shitload of money. I can't fight them by myself, but I'm now more awake to them and the signs around them.
3. There is not a whole lot I can do about #2 above, the only thing I can do is to accept that I don't know everything and be willing and able to change my direction and my plan at a moment's notice. I am so grateful for the warriors on here and do my best as a Prayer Warrior....
4. The best thing I can do right now... RIGHT NOW... is to divest myself of everything that weighs me down. "He who travels lightest, travels fastest." All my Christmas gifts this year will be from my own belongings that I know some one wants and i no longer need.
5. It is high time I work harder at creating a better and more reliable physical tribe around me. I love all you Q-fags and wish I knew which of you were in my home town, but till then, I put out subtle feelers to find the ones near me and direct as many questioners as I can to this site.
6. I'm armed, I'm Prepped, I keep prepping, I keep revisiting my stash and determining what makes sense now and what I can let go of. This is a constant practice.
7. I'm getting up there in age, but I exercise daily and make sure I keep my physical, mental and emotional bodies healthy.
8. I do everything I can to avoid extreme leftists and have long refused to date a Liberal. Too much work, too much angst, and I love Alpha males. Beta males make me want to punch them in the face. So that's an easy choice.

I haven't completely dropped out, but I could if I needed to.

I'm with you, Patriot. Waiting for the weight to be lifted. The Pendulum does swing and it's time. It has been too many decades with these Lefty shenanigans.

God bless all of you. I'm Thankful on this thanksgiving weekend that we have this place to go. It's a sanctuary...

I'm sorry you are going through this. Hopefully you are able to find some professional help. Have you reached out to friends or family for help?

Only one answer and its Yeshua. Read Your Bible

I pretty much you... Other than the financial security... As much as it pains you to interact with zombies, it's a necessary part of cutting the head off of the snake. There are many more "Neo's" out there that need just a nudge to open their eyes. It's up to us to open their minds! Stay strong brother!

While I never had much wealth due to my being in the military followed by becoming a law enforcement officer in a rural midwestern state I can relate to the rest of it. I no longer work and raise my own food while living on my military retirement. It's not a bunch of money, but it's enough. More than enough considering where I live and how I live now.

Thank you for this post. This helps us remember that we're all real human beings, in what whatever corner of the U.S. or world that we exist. All of us (those of us who are sincere) face similar challenges, fears, dilemmas). Let us unite, anons, in our search and exposure of all things TRUTH!

Yes yes a thousand times yes! The fake world is like a flickering mirage now. Everything is just ridiculous. News people talking BS thinking we believe it, all of them in unison with fake deep discussions on TV. The movies, books, propaganda. I do struggle to see a reason to plan very far ahead. Things I loved have less value. People I meet go into categories now, woke, waking, blind, good, evil. But I also have faith that we are all waking up for a reason and life is good and damn interesting at this point. But I do want to yell st people who are stupidly asleep.

Yes. I was red pilled in 1986. It's been a long long lonely road waiting for other people like you to wake up in 2012. Many of us knew the Okla bombing was BS and Waco was BS and 911 was evil and the little kids on the Milk bottle was also evil. There was no Internet back then and there was really no way to know if other people was awake or aware. You didn't dare talk about any of it. What we're experiencing now is music to me. Knowing that millions of people are aware and pissed and understanding who is evil and who is real. We may never get justice but just knowing the world is watching and aware is better then everyone sleep walking. You have an opportunity to get rid of your "friends" and find people who "get it" and who you can walk this road with. One way or another I believe we will take back this Country and we can't do it without people like you and me.

"The test of a first rate intelligence is the ability to hold two opposed ideas in the mind at the same time, and still retain the ability to function." F Scott Fitzgerald

Thank you thank you! I absolutely feel this way. You have said it so well that I can't stop laughing and crying at the same time. ..wiping my eyes.. I too have walked this path my whole life and then have researched my brains out for the whole year while everyone else in my family is reading The Huffington Post and my brother thinks Avenatti is a 'genius'. Of course since then Mr. 'Genius' looks more like the ambulance chaser and privately I wonder if my brother finally realized what I said was true. Since then my mom's 'safe' choice of Kasich looks like he is hiding some real DOD problems in Columbus, Ohio. Oh, so Trump is brash? They would rather have the DJ voice low key style of Obama. Yes, I'm the family sell out and brought betrayal disbelief tears to my brother's eyes. I blew him away when I accidentally moved into a conservative neighborhood with flags flying everywhere. A few doors down they actually have a flag pole with Trump 2020 on it and a Bethany Church cross on the wall every night in lights. By the way this is small community in CA, yes it actually exists and my rental happened to be close to my daughter's school.

God Bless you!

I share your pain. Rosencrantz and Guildenstern are dead.

I face a similar dilemma. My question is what do you do when your significant other doesn't get it? I feel an increasing need to call it quits with her, because she and I have increasingly different priorities.

I rejected brand clothing in favor of white t-shirts, trying to look as plain as one could.

I rejected tv after leaving my parents house, knowing its evils.

I kept rejecting everything that was pushed onto me...In fact to this day if something is advertised to me I tell myself never buy that product. Often saying it out loud in hopes to deter any more advertisements.

Red-pilled myself after high school with 9/11 and started distancing myself from others upholding the "norms"

I now see them as NPC's or programmed adults (which is what they are...programmed)

I was waiting for a day to take the fight back. Fearing each day in obama's reign, that I couldn't come forward to join the Good Fight.

I thought for some time that Ron Paul was onto something and he could be the resurgance I was looking for....However the media blacklisted him and I knew he could not do it.

[Enter Trump]

I knew HRC was the canidate that was going to win. Too much money and corruption in a divided country. I saw nearly all democrats supporting Bernie and used it as a platform to expose Crimes of the Clintons.

It took me all night to decide if Trump was the man for this job. I saw what was said about him via the msm....But i also knew how full of shit the MSM is. How deeply connected the MSM is to the CIA. He was spotless, the man was a clean whistle. But could he summon thee people that rejected the fake world?

Point is, we are here and awake for a damn good reason. This is our fight, and we take our country back from the LIARS, CHEATERS, AND THIEVES that took control of our goverment.

Yes! Preaching to the choir on this one. When the towers fell what my first thought was, how can these steel structured buildings fall so symmetrically. I actually thought controlled demolition, but then I got caught up in the whole terrorist , plane thing and fell back into lock step with the program. Years later while doing some research on the New World Order mantra, I realized what I thought on that day was the correct response. From then on it was taking off those rose colored glasses and replacing them with the special lenses that magnify all of the lies going back to Kennedy. The Bush's and all the rest should be tried and executed.

The same exact think happened to me in 2012. I got fired from my job dropping too many red pills at work, people thought I was crazy. I was just trying to wake them up. I was sure things would fall apart at any moment in 2012. Then 2013 came and past, 2014, 15, 16, 17... In 2014 I finally started working again (didn't sell the house). My rational was that fake or not, it's the reality that I live in. I was wide awake but very depressed about the direction of the country. I stopped trying to wake co-workers and neighbors up. Mark Twain has a good quote for this... “It's easier to fool people than to convince them that they have been fooled.” They did not want to wake up. I would drop little hints here and there, but for the most part I still don't try to wake people up. They're going to need to figure out that they've been duped on their own. You can lead a horse to water, but you can't make them drink.

Since about 2013 I make enough to live and have a few nice toys. I try to enjoy life as much as possible. I thank and pray for @POTUS and Q and team.

To sum it up, you're not alone. I think we're all here because we're wide awake to the evil in this world and we're ready for justice to be served.

Hang in there friend, it's always darkest just before the dawn. :)

May God Bless you and all the Patriots out there in the world who are working to shine light on darkness.

Yes, but what you are living for and fighting for Now is what EVERYONE should have been living for all along: TRUTH! It's not easy, but it gets better. Congrats! You've Evolved!!

Well said "dittos" couldn't have said it as good but it resonates bigtime.

yes - God Bless. I'm a woman & I understand

Just my own experience says the public really IS THAT stupid, THAT ignorant, and THAT blissful about it. They WANT TO STAY BLUE-PILLED. I've made the VAST mistake(s) of attempting to....gasp TELL THE MF'IN TRUTH to people. All I get back is grief over it to the point where I, disabled with a bullet in my back from a gang, no longer WANT to "re-join the rat race" although I'm EXPECTED to do just that. I guess I shouldn't be all that surprised tho - nobody gave a damn about me "calling" Trump the election winner with 303 E.V....on 11/3/16. I guess because I was wrong - he received 304 of the E.V. cast.

Dude, you need Jesus. This world will NEVER be right, but in Christ we have hope for what the bible calls a New Heaven and a New Earth in which all things are restored to perfection. It will be for those who have put their faith in Christ and are born again. I believe this is what you are looking for. It includes in this life Peace that surpasses understanding, Joy, Hope, Love, etc. And in the next life, Heaven.

Wish you were my neighbor. I'm surrounded by libtards.

Hell yes, I feel the same way! Thanks for your post. My journey started in 2003. I got a small taste of the truth and wanted more and more. It was hard to handle at times and I had to step back. But I kept coming back for more. The information expands on itself, fits together like a puzzle. I got myself and children baptized to get right with God. I see the world for what it is and it’s depressing to know so many are either in the dark or brainwashed. I pray President Trump and the Q team will be the catalyst this world needs, to purge the evil corruption. My stomach has been in knots a lot over the last 6 months. I trust the plan, and I trust God. WWG1WGA.

Some of us have no humans that know the truth , I think that is a big thing. But I think for myself I need to try ...and focus on building something , anything .

Sorry i forgot Grasshopper 🤣🤣🤣

Yes!! I can’t afford to do what you did but I can’t listen to hannity, rush, cnn, any of them - as I know this is not reality. Just GIVE ME REALITY ALREADY!! And I also 100% disagree with Q on that they need to tell the public 100% of what has been going on - (not 20% or 30 or whatever). we can handle it and we need to know so the people it affected can be acknowledged, and so it can NEVER BE REPEATED!

Feel your pain and frustration, but think you were not happy in that fake(we called it plastic in my day) life so you sought the truthfulness. We all seek wisdom in one way or the other don't be to hard on yourself ,it is a journey all is not done in one life time.

Find something you enjoy doing or would like to learn to see if you enjoy doing. Create something. Research skills are transferable. You can learn to do anything you want to learn to do with all of the knowledge that is at your fingertips. Build a table. Build an underground bunker and fill it with ammo. There is peace in the creation of things. An end will come either way. We may need you if it goes down the unpleasant way. Don't let these evil fuckers steal who you are. Maybe you are even better than your old life let you be. There is no peace in material consumption only the desire to desire. WWG1WGA

Just your thinking in this direction helps the cause. The body of humanity raises consciousness one “cell” at a time

This post is weird.

It seems to me that one of the common themes lately is bringing down the cabal, which could pretty easily be translated into, "bringing everything down". If they are going to collapse the fractional reserve system, it'll be a pretty good equivalent of crashing down. Kennedy tried it, and we all know how that went. We'll see what Round 2 brings. I, personally, would also like to see a grand reset of the system.

Everyone here feels this way!!!!

We all do, welcome!

Do you have kids? If not, I recommend you go skydiving. Seriously. I'm a professional, been jumping 20 years this past Sept. It's a world where you can chill out, and people dont judge. And you'll make friends from all over the world! And they all have different perspectives. Just go make that first jump if you haven't already. And if you've done a tandem, go take the first jump course. It'll change your life, I promise.

Yes feel this way exactly. In last year or so have gotten more comfortable just being alone - built a fire, enjoy it with my dog out in nature. No one I know really gets it. Only the ones here, and the YT channels, 8chan. Have always been very outgoing, but comfortable on my own, so am just going with it. Can only tolerate truth. Cannot tolerate any BS at all anymore.

I thank God for you and all of you. Have been semi-awake my whole life, but woke up 100% when Prince died. Began researching extensively then.

Quit my corporate job and now teach music. I feel my life purpose is to share my gift of music. And so that’s what I do.

You’re not alone. I’m right there with you.

Yeah it's really lonely here at the top, but you have us. The sheer ignorance of the shills only confirm my beliefs more.

Don't take the black pill. Normie need our help, don't isolate yourself

Wow. Spot on.

Always been interested in conspiracies thanks to my dad who knew about gulf of Tonkin before it was a thing. Had some harsh spiritual growing pains in 2008. Was like everything changed. From inside to out. Made me mentally tough. But it was something that I still don't understand quite what happened.

Stupid people are just so happy. Ignorance is truly bliss.

My story and thoughts are much the same. I lost my wife of 30 years a little more than three years ago. We lived in a small city near the hospital she was a nurse at for 35 years, I was a professional, and we were both very awake and were prepares as much as possible in the city. When she passed away i sold it all and moved to a remote area, and have never looked back. I like my solitude and my day is much like yours. I take care of my property and a few animals, and spend much of my time online looking through various sites, waiting, just waiting for the shoe to drop. I know it is close and I can see it in everything around me. I too am ready for the REAL world again where all the sickos and power hungry bastards are gone.

God has unlimited power, authority and influence. He does all He wants and intends to do. God’s powerful Word spoke creation into being from nothing. God is the source of all power whether atoms, energy, life or human strength and authority. Without God’s power, everything would fall apart. His power holds the stars in the sky and sustains human lives. Nothing can stop God. Evil and death will not win. God has promised a day He will raise all His children to life that does not end, and God has the power to keep His promise.

Fuck off. Aliens aren’t real. If you’re waiting for a huge war or financial collapse you’re doing it wrong. Try contributing to the real world and help others heal instead of minimizing your existence to living off your savings and hiding from anyone who doesn’t agree with you.

Thanks for sharing this story.

This is exactly how Monasticism Started. Pray and develop your relationship with God. The Monks left the world behind to Talk to The Highest power and those who understand the worthlessness of the Fake Real World as you put it.

I love you, Keep up the fight.

Relationship Priorities to keep healthy:

1 Relationship with God - Also Known as Love

2 Relationship with Truth - Also Known as Intellect

3 Relationship with Self - Exercise & Physical Health

4 Relationship with Emotions - Feelings, Psychology & Entertainment

Most people start at the bottom and work their way up. WRONG WAY !

Take Care, P

You most certainly are not alone

I relate to much you are saying. My problem is more spiritual. I feel untethered. As if I don’t belong. I don’t want to decorate for Christmas because of all I have learned of this pagan holiday. I feel trapped between 2 worlds. I am also very sad and only want what I have always wanted in this thing we call life. To feel JOY. The truth has hurt beyond my comprehension. At first I was excited waiting for the Justice and the cleansing to take place. I’m now tired and have only little hope that it will. Loss of faith? Maybe. If it does happen, I will be glad, but I have been affected for life by what I have found down the various rabbit holes.

"He who fights with monsters should be careful lest he thereby become a monster.

And if thou gaze long into an abyss, the abyss will also gaze into thee."

We dropped out a few years ago. Mate and I homestead off grid, grow or raise a lot of our own food. Mate works part time to pay what few bills we have and we barter a lot. People think we're nuts but when SHTF, and it will, we will survive.

You're not alone.

I feel like you're trolling me. I had a great career working for what I now believe is the future of the cabal's NWO, and left it to do my own thing which worked out but it's only democratic cities where 'normal' white american guys are like lepers.

I found weed and cut ties with everyone I pretended were friends despite having zero values in common. They love money and more of it and call anyone a mean asshole if you bring up how they're making life harder for everyone and ruining their own future.

I gave it up to live in the woods but I keep it quiet because when I do go into town I don't want people calling the FBI to report Ted Kaczynski v2. I just want to live away from people unless the world changes, nothing worth contributing to.

Plan is Alaska then maybe Russia if it gets worse. But the idea of a wife and kids are gone.

I need to make make enough to get to where you are, sadly

I know how you feel, I have been researching conspiracy (facts) now since the late 90's. For me it started with the JFK assassination which led me to the Bush's & the Clinton drug running through the CIA. Then 911 has come along and then I knew the rabbit hole was much bigger even. So in the now 20 years plus I have been trying to red pill people, and the hardest part about it is the people you thought were the smartest usually turn out to be the most clueless. But yes I also feel the need to get away from the burbs and I bought a retirement property in a sparse rural area. And also like you I feel there will be a trigger event and that we are very close. I am now only two months from retirement so just not participating in the TAX system will make me feel a lot better as a Canadian since Trudope is only flushing our taxes down the liberal drain

Who is John Galt

Yep.

I see the Jooose with different eyes after 911 disclosures. And, go read about our own C_A attacking Federal Building in Oklahoma in 1993 (or 95). Total BS is our government.

Why did all the usernames turn into numbers?

YES! I've thought of compartmentalizing the Q stuff and leave some of my time to just enjoying life. But its not like it used to be - simple is not simple anymore.

I've been like this for at least 10 years after being redpilled on 9/11 and then went down all of the rabbit holes.

The worst is discovering the money scam because just about the entire population doesn't have a clue that their entire lives are controlled by something that is made out of nothing by a very small group of creepy old men

I agree with you. Going deep in the rabbit hole and still there researching. My wife really thinks I'm crazy, wants me to stop, but no way till the end. I fear the unknown! WWG1WGA where ever that leads.

No, many aren't emotionally weak or driven, many like me are having a beer watching piss ant mentals melt over shit they can't control, much less ever do anything about. Try shooting your self for a real focus on what is reality and what is not.Here have a tampon.

Many of us are forever changed by becoming aware..I look at everything differently now and forever..I hope to see radical change as the current state is intolerable..we do become isolated and some people think we are a bit nuts. That's fine. WWG1WGA. PEACE !

Thanks for sharing! I think you speak for many of us anons.

I'm no psychologist, but it sounds like you've lost the meaning you used to have. I think the way you describe your life now is unhealthy and will leads you down some dark paths, so best to take stock now and make some good choices going forward.

Anything that turns into an obsession to the point where you are making life altering decisions and in a wildly different state of mind than you were before bears a little scrutiny. What personally about the Q movement makes it to where you can't enjoy music anymore? Do you think the entire music industry is corrupt? I certainly hope not, because if you do you clearly haven't done the research and would be a bad indicator of the larger decisions you are making. Movies are the same way. Little more corrupt I'd say, but it's not like you cannot enjoy movies anymore. You are throwing the baby out with the bathwater.

The moment you're waiting for, the weight to fall off so you "get to exist in the REAL world again" may come, but you won't adjust properly because of how you are isolating yourself. I've had friends go down a similar road and it is not pretty.

Please, take a break from the conspiracies for about a month. Go exercise and eat right. Pray. Read. Take a good hard look at some of these choices you are making and give them the proper weighted thought. If you don't, if you continue this path out of default, you will not see the far reaching consequences this has and you will have no one to blame but yourself.

The answer is not to isolate yourself in this way.

You are intelligent. You are able to see what so many people cannot. What would the old you think of the new you? You were the typical white American male who probably looked at people like the new you as "off balance" or strange. We Americans are taught to follow the norm and cast judgement upon those who don't follow.

It seems you don't have children, am I correct?

You are correct in your knowledge and preparedness. The seclusion may be your downfall. I understand asocial tendencies. I understand keeping a distance from others who are sheep. It's frustrating and annoying, many are stupid and set in their ways. You are awake and educated, what good is your knowledge if you keep it all to yourself? I'm not trying to offend you, I understand you, I agree with you mostly. Maybe it's because I have kids and there is no way to stop this everyday life.

I function in this world, but I follow my intuition, I'm no sheep. I do what I can to protect my family. We eat organic, garden, ferment food, no microwave. We don't follow western medicine, no vaccines, which people love to judge and comment (sheeple). We are armed. My husband and I are awake. But we both work and function. We know what we know, when the opportunity arises, we educate others. We aren't viewed as crazy, so when we speak out against the norm, people tend to listen. We keep it simple, people are entitled to their opinion. People must open their eyes and seek the truth, you can't force people to learn.

You've lived the American life, you know the role. This is an advantage. Allow yourself to educate others. Your knowledge is needed, not just after the big event. Your knowledge is needed to prepare, help others prepare.

I guess my point is most people are good. I believe in humanity. Don't lose your faith in humanity.

Absolutely.

yes, i feel the same way, as i watch the world around me, the things that i use to believe, the church that i use to go to, it is all seen in a different light, some friends still have blinders some don't, i own a business so i can not just quite doing what i am doing i have others that depend on me,so i will carry on for now but my world has changed, i am no longer a sheep following the lies. One of the big things that was very sad recently is the homeless in my town have increased, it took over a year for the city to raise 20 k to help them, In the church they raised 80 k for africa in a weekend. very sad we have our priorities all screwed up. i watch people now, i listen to what they say and what they do, i find that most are actors on a big stage. They will say " I love You" But what they do will not line up with what they say, it is all just a show to get you to do what they want you to do and when you do not respond the way that they think you should it is you that is the problem.

This has been me since I woke up in 2006. Keep watching the horizon, but don't let life pass you by. I'm 33 and I decided the best way to fight the Satanic NWO is to live a good life, be kind and generous to others, find a good woman and raise some smart and aware kids that share the same beliefs abd traditions as my ancestors. Basically, whatever the idiots on tv tell you to do, do the opposite and you will be fine.

total agree, I was just thinking today that, if something doesn't big happen by 2020 this was all pointless and time to look for a small farm to live at and let the world pass me by.

I had to listen to a conversation on how wonderful 5G will be on Thanksgiving! I was asked not to talk about things that may upset people! It was a day of walking on eggshells and biting my tongue. I think I'm going to sit out future holidays, until The Great Awakening happens. I can't play along with Fairy Tail land either.

I understand. Of course I had little to give up. Life already hit a dead end. I cant watch movies I used to enjoy. I was wondering where all the good guys went. Hopefully we will come out on the other side and it will be a new chance. Stand w you patriot. WWG1WGA

Yep - almost couldnt have put it better , bro.

Thanks for posting - so as I can know am not alone in feeling totally disconnected from this corrupted reality

It is a very lonely place though , I must say

I have been engaged with "Research" since around 2001. It all didn't come to a head for me after 2005 when I was in the military and realized the war on terror was horse shit and mostly a lie. Once I became civilian again in 2011 I was over all of the bullshit and corruption and started to withdrawal. After a year of this I realized that being withdrawn isn't helping anyone including my self. So I now still play the game we are expected to play however my past time in spent learning and practicing self sustainability. In my eyes still being part of society is essential because you can meet like minded people and wake others up while at the same time keeping a close wrap on the OPSEC of my preparation and planning. In other words I play the game to make sure I don't stick out from the rest of the sheep. You should think about doing the same. Just stay off social media, it's the devil.

100 %

I already own a house and property in a rural area of Northeast Ohio. Currently living in Indiana in an apartment though for work. My goal is to finish paying down debt, never go into debt again, and move back to that place in Ohio. I'm not as much of a conspiracy theorist as some of you Anons are, although I am open to Q Theory and its implications, but preparedness and an appreciation for those things that are real is a worthy goal.

Your story reminds me of a similar time in my life when I was wondering what is the point of this life. I had a lot also and I had reached the point of wondering what is the point of getting more and more. What does it lead to. Is this all that there is to life and then you die. You can't take anything with you when you go. I wondered about things like where were we before we were born and where do we go when we die? I was of course made fun of by others who did not to talk about these weird topics. I saw a rerun of a Billy Graham service where he was calling anyone who wanted to know what life was about and how to fill that hole in your life. He had rented out a stadium in a city and it had tens of thousands of people coming to hear him share that the God of the Bible loves them and they need a relationship with Jesus to fill that hole in their life. I had tried to fill that hole in my life with money, alcohol, success but in the end I still felt like I was missing something. I listened to that service and at the end I surrendered my life to Jesus Christ. It made sense to me that I don't have any control over my life, really, so if God is real and He made us we will never find peace,joy, love unless we are following Him. I confessed to God that I am a sinner and asked Jesus to save me. I confessed that I believed that Jesus did die on the cross and His death paid in full for all my sins and the sins of the world. That He was buried for three days and on the third day He arose from the dead. He was seen by over 500 people and then He arose into heaven to sit at the right hand of the Father on the throne of Grace. I didn't understand everything I was praying completely but over the next many years as I read The Bible I began to understand that I had passed from death unto life everlasting with Jesus Christ. I feel for you and your story and I would just say don't worry about people making fun of you think about eternity. It is a very long time. It is better that people make fun of you here for a short time than to spend enternity seperated from God. I hope this helps in some way. In His service.

You could try becoming a monk for a while. I'd suggest Orthodox Christianity.

Yep, 9/11 was my divergence.

I went deep down the hole only on things I could verify against other proofs.

I think the general population know about 1% of the truth.

I "went Galt" over 10 years ago. I quit work and buy as little as possible.

Prepper sites can help a little, but they don't seem to know about Q.

It is hard to sleep when all doubts you've had over the last 20 years have been removed. Satan really does rule this world. People happily go along with him. Criminals run our country. They crave power and money and could care less about America and her position as a beacon of light (Good light not luciferion light). You find out the leader of your church is really one of the beasts mentioned in revelation and the man whose number is 666. You find out that there are people in the world who would kidnap, rape, kill and eat children for pleasure. Things that were thought of as unbelievable are now believable. We know know there are traitors among us who would give the sovereignty of the US over to the UN. These same people would cheat on elections to make it happen.

No wonder people can't sleep! No wonder people are impatient to have President Trump arrest , prosecute and march these people to jail or the gallows. Let's get this fight going, I for one, will sleep a lot better when we win this fight.

I relate deeply to what you said about movies, music and loving "stuff". Music and movies and television were a passion of mine and like you I cannot support any of it and gave it all up. My perspective has changed completely and my priorities are simple and clear and have nothing to do with impressing anyone or participating in the human "race" which is nothing but an evil lie.

More or less. But it sounds like you need to go an Ayahuasca Retreat Center..... I'm going next Feb. I want to see the truth for myself.

www.gaiasagrada.com

It's actually pretty cool to be able to talk about this phenomenon we find ourselves in. I also am having difficulty dealing with coworkers or family members who are still asleep. I am a 56 yr old female married mom of 3. I work in the school system in Southern CA. Surrounded by liberals who were actually crying at work the day after the 2016 election. I on the other hand came to work with spring in my step I hadn't felt in a long time. I struggle with anger at being lied to about basically everything AND at the pure evil of people who would hurt children. Luckily my immediate family is pretty woke. My 80 yr old mother included. My son tried to red pill me about who really runs this world about 5 yrs ago, but I wasn't ready then. I found Q on my own over this past summer and now like you I'm hooked. Tried to red pill a few friends about Q no luck. I don't know I single person outside the immediate family to talk to about what I've learned or whats happening behind the scenes.The isolation I think is temporary. I know I am still processing the massive amount of new info and the emotions that go with questioning everything now. I am blessed not cursed with this new knowledge and I want to know the truth no matter how ugly it is. I'm praying that I can just love people and do good out in the world and not get frustrated with them. I say this prayer for all patriots. WWG1WGA

i'm right there with you. my biggest fear is that "the event" will never happen. things just continue limping along. the extraction of our nations wealth continues until there just isn't anything left. maybe THATS when "the event" happens. maybe 100 years down the line. and at that point theres just nothing left to fight for. our people will compromise into 100% degeneracy and addiction, the history will be gone, the wealth will be gone, and we're turned into drooling lumps of meat. maybe guys like you and I DO survive. maybe our resources don't run out. but maybe they do. maybe we turn into the homeless raving lunatics we see on the street. Id like to think we could fight and hang onto the resources we have. use them like our great, great, grandfathers did to turn them into more resources......but nobody seems to be on board. just more "trust the plan" inaction, outright cowardice, and navel contemplation. I want the extractors to PAY. but......apparently i'm a minority.

I can't stand it either. It's like waiting for my life to start.

It will be like a massive weight being lifted off our shoulders when the truth breaks for us. But it will be a horrific shock for those that lived in Lala land.

I've been doing this since 2001, since I left my job in Banking! My heart has not been in doing anything that would support an essentially corrupt system/culture. It has been difficult for my family but I am lucky because they have stayed with me. When the hammer drops on the Deep State, I am hoping for some sort of vindication when they realise that I am not crazy after all but was perhaps awakened to the fact that something was not right long before they were.

Something else may be happening:

Matthew 6:19-21 New International Version (NIV) Treasures in Heaven 19 “Do not store up for yourselves treasures on earth, where moths and vermin destroy, and where thieves break in and steal. 20 But store up for yourselves treasures in heaven, where moths and vermin do not destroy, and where thieves do not break in and steal. 21 For where your treasure is, there your heart will be also.

So... what do you think about the niggers?

Definatley not alone! And it was nice to come across your comments here. It's good to know that people like you exist because I so rarely meet people in the real world who see through the veil, most are oblivious or think your crazy, or they just simply don't want to know! I've also taken a step back from everything and am waiting........with eagerness and anticipation! I hope that when it comes, it will bring the change I've hoped for! As the world is becoming unbearable!

To a degree - I don't connect with a lot of people who aren't red-pilled. But I keep my job, keep up my mortgage payments, etc. Just because I recognize the system is fucked, I can still participate within the system at a minimal level to keep myself secure. I use some of the money I earn for preps. I am enjoying the decline.

I found the book "Enjoy the Decline" by Aaron Clarey very very helpful. It's a good read for how to live a joyful, happy life in a society you no longer respect.

It's the /pol/ effect.

You'll get used to it.

Almost the exact same thing has happened to me - except I haven't gone as far as quitting my job and selling all my stuff.

I have contempt for every fucker who spews NPC talking points and will only associate with those who don't spout such stupidity. My faith in humanity was somewhat restored though by one of my workmates dropping truthbombs about the left, at work.

Knowing that everything is a lie can and will drag you into full blown depression if you're not ready for it.

I’ve felt like you the last 20 years or more. The spirituality I found helps me to keep going.

Now I understand what the matrix is about.

I live in the single most brainwashed place in America, the Bay Area. I basically cannot interact with anyone here aside from one senior age truther down the street. My friends and family have all but disowned me. But the LORD has called me out of the world and I simply cannot go back to believing a lie.

Wow, that was very powerful and I'm sure many - including me - can relate. I'm not there yet, but have been WQKE since 1996.

It's been very strange going about day to day business knowing that 99% of the people walking around are likely not aware of the things we are aware of here and certainly not aware of what is about to happen.. It's almost like living in a parallel world at the same time as the false world.

I could have written that myself. Timing and everything.

Just Trust the Plan! Patriots are in control! They cannot stop what's coming! No Deals!

I agree those of us who know the truth should self destruct and make sure we talk to no one

- Deep State"s Wet Dream

Sorry to hear you feel this way. My take on it is that most people just don’t know and have no idea... Q doesn’t want us to be recluse from society but help redpill your communities so people stay calm when shit hits the fan. There is a beautiful world on the other side of this war and it’s the world you were living... only difference would be that a third of all our earnings won’t be siphoned off to satanic criminals.

Come back to society - we need you to be a beacon of truth ready to help people make sense of the insanity that is about to happen.

They will win and achieve total distopian control if people like you are not prepared to fight fight fight.

These people are sick, we the people can not let them win.

Where we go one, we go all

You said it better than I ever could anon.

What if you’re wrong?

Ohh your not alone. I really wish I could get out of this fake world. I have family dependent on me and am the only source of money for food and shelter. I work and work and work & for what? Im tired of not living. We raise as much of our own food but are beholden to work for shelter. I've thought to myself how did it work hundreds of years ago? I am always rushed and never get to enjoy getting my hands dirty in the soil. Never get to pluck weeds and spend hours in the sun. You are definitely not alone.

OP. .. wait till you get into the COBRA stuff talking about THE EVENT 🌄 ! http://2012portal.blogspot.com/

Learn about positive E.T' s ( The Pleiadians ) etc helping to bring on the Event

Close but not to the point of drooping out. Hey, Q says "enjoy the show" so just hang out on voat and watch it all unfold. Not sure if it's going to be one instant event. I feel like it's going to be multiple events like we've been seeing escalate for 2 years now. This is going to last throughout Trump's entire 8 years...;)

Yes, completely. If you're searching for something to read, look up "The Law of One" by Ra. This set of books basically is where I am spiritually, and I feel I am just "waiting around" for the real shit to happen (or to simply wake up). I envy your situation in a way, but I won't lie in that everything I wanted growing up I is what I have now. Cheers

^^^ I feel the same as OP ^^^

I'm a union laborer since I was 18 set to retire in 10 yrs. I operate a small online business instead of working second job. I own my own house, married and have kids. I was a crusty gutter punk fag for 10+ years. I've been on the Trump & Q trains since the beginning of both. I too have a hard time bullshitting with society anymore. Really brings you down, to bring yourself down to the level of being ignorant. I do it for ivlihood's sake, to make things easier for them as well as me. It's a cumulative bitch of a weight sometimes.

Im glad it is not just me. To quote Butch....."I have vision and the world needs bifocals"....or something like that

The rabbit hole takes its toll. Lil bits.

Congratulations, you’ve taken a black pill. It sucks, and your life will suck because of it, but you’re not alone.

OP: Being productive is part of what it means to be human.

Gathering and heaping up knowledge and understanding is NO DIFFERENT from gathering and heaping up stuff. Both are narcissistic gazing in the mirror.

How much knowledge is enough? No such thing. So why are you so desperate to quench what can never be satisfied?

There is no hope for this world. It is destined to be destroyed. The only hope is in the return of Christ, when he will overthrow all earthly powers.

But that doesn’t mean checking out of the world. It means living, truly living, DESPITE the hopelessness that saturated the very air we breathe.

The Bible speaks of this in many places. Best is the book of Ecclesiastes.

Meaningless, meaningless, says the preacher. All is meaningless! Empty, vanity!

That’s the key idea of Ecclesiastes. All is vanity. But there is hope for a new world to come. That hope is realized in Jesus.

I have felt this way also since "awakening". I'm a disabled war Vet & it's hard to swallow that virtually everything weve been taught was a lie. Do you think the earth is flat? I do & know the globe theory was created to keep us questioning if God exists. Keep praying brother anon & Godspeed on this journey called life. Believe it or not your in a better situation than most. As stated earlier, I am awake to a lot & wish I could have land to grow my own food because of all (obvious to us) sorts of reasons.

Your story mimics my own in many ways. My starting point was the loss of a long time job after working in corporate America for 18 + years. I had already sold the house, as this was after 2008 when the housing market began to tumble. Took a year off with the severance I had. No longer had the TV, and began getting all my news from the internet. Down the rabbit hole I went. Felt like Neo. I could not go back into the matrix, it would be like living a lie, pretending that everything was normal, when I knew it wasn't. Eventually had to break off many relationships because these people lived in different realities that I found myself living in.

As a word of caution, once you open yourself up to other realities, and trying to determine the truth about things, you can find yourself ungrounded and not able to believe in things. You may find some rabbit holes are traps, they are traps to the lunatic fringe, so that even if you were to try to Red pill others, you would sound nuts, no one would listen to you. Be careful of those traps. I had to let fellow Redpilled friends go because they became ungrounded and could not speak rationally any longer.

Good luck

I feel just like you do. My feeling is that I should really begin to make prayer and repentance a more important part of my existence. I've always been a Christian, fairly regular church-going protestant that identifies with the body of our population that happily accept "evangelical" as a term to describe "my people", politically and otherwise. I am under the impression right now that of the events we see unfolding before our eyes right now, nothing is an accident; therefore, the best we can do is keep the faith and trust that while it may get ugly (to say the very least) we are going to triumph. WE are the ones who want justice to prevail, and this great experiment in democracy begun some 200+ years ago is going through self-correction because evil cannot win. Maybe I am naive, but with patriots like us interacting--and God's will--I have a feeling that we will get the last laugh! That's all I want: The Last Laugh. Carry on

Are you that new neighbor? KeK. May your homestead become a proper slice of eden. You can do it!!

We checked out six or so years ago. Best thing ever.

Q is an A.L.I.E.N.! Look down the rabbit hole found here. https://voat.co/v/QRV/2871553

yes

You sound demoralised. That makes me wonder if the conspiracy movement you explored wasn't designed to do exactly that?

We should design a curriculum that teaches the student how things work without demoralising the student. The way mystery schools used to release information in stages of initiation.

Saint Augustine defined the state of sin as being 'recurved back upon yourself'.

Thank you for sharing this, Patriot. I have been feeling similar things, although I have not gone to the extremes of quitting my job and isolating myself. I do love people and I love to work in this world. People are so funny! I laugh every day at their antics.

My husband (I'm a woman btw) is somewhat into the Q phenomenon but isn't completely on board with Trump, probably because his co-workers listen to NPR all day. So yeah, it's isolating. Although I can discuss politics with some of my family members, I do not share everything I'm learning (child trafficking, cannibalism, the cabal, etc) because I fear it would be too upsetting for them.

During social occasions with friends, I find it increasingly difficult to interact with others the way I used to. For example, we were watching (with friends) a movie with Morgan Freeman. I used to admire him but now I know that he is into incest and pedophilia. Disgusting! So I put these thoughts aside because I don't want to ruin the party. I did allow myself to say that JZ is a thug and murderer, Beyonce is a puppet, the Richard Gere story with the gerbil is true (ask me how I know) and I even shared some thoughts on JFK's murder...these are all more socially acceptable "conspiracy theories" that people can get behind.

Good luck to you and I hope you find solace on boards like this. Despite the occasional shill, I certainly have. God Bless.

You're not in Vegas growing food. I want to congratulate you on a great life. I get you feel empty now when you have to interact with the "fake" world. I sure as hell hope you don't think you've wasted your life. More life to live now. Different now. I'm not offering advice.

Its interesting. I'm not saying I'm right but I went through a similar process. I decided to apply evo bio to christ hood and take up that mantle. It actually does guide me because, as arbitrary as the guidelines are, it seems to be working for me.

Good luck

I haven't gone to those extremes - though I might if I were financially able to - but yes, I feel EXACTLY the same way. I look at everything in my life and see the pattern of lies, and how I was sucked into the various belief systems. It permeates everything, everywhere. I can't stand it, now that I see it so clearly. I also feel like I am waiting for the Event to take place. I have mixed feelings, because the Event will change everything, and life is actually not so bad right now, except for the stress of knowing Truth is a world gone crazy. But I will find so much satisfaction when things come crashing down, it won't matter. I'll be happy to go out in a blaze and die fighting, as long as justice is served and I am doing God's will.

it wont be long before the cops come round demanding you comply

Welcome to the great awakaning

Words have meaning. Both of these worlds you are talking about are considered the real world. Politics doesnt change the universe. Lets skip to facts. What is "fake" about the "fake" world exactly? How can we make it more real?

You're a worthless nigger who sits and does nothing. Keep praying for daddy god to fix your mess you spinless shit piles. All of your are equally worthless.

We had no idea just what Q meant when they first told us. Now? Now we know exactly what they meant.

"Those who know cannot sleep." Q

We can no longer live in "the beautiful lie." We see it for the vile creation that it truly is.

That sounds like youre just freaking out and losing your ability to think critically: making a bunch of bad CHOICES that don't really have to be made just cause you're "woke" now. You found out humanity is enslaved and couldnt handle it emotionally so you gave up everything you had going for you and totally willingly destroyed your situation and sent your life on a downwards spiral. Let me ask you this: how many people in your life, that you allegedly loved and cared for, have called you crazy? Distanced themselves from you? How many have YOU distanced yourself from because they're "sleepers"? This is the type of anon that gets criticized as a "boomer". I'm very sorry about your situation brother, but I have a family and a job and all those "fake" assets myself, and Ive been researching this stuff for years. I've never felt as if there's reason to stop providing for myself or my family. There's no reason to have no self respect and opt out of being sane just cause you know more about the history of the world, and the structure of society than others; in fact that defeats the purpose of being "woke" entirely. The ones at the top of the food chain live by the law of the jungle. The elite bankers would laugh at you for almost getting somewhere, and then giving up. That's what they want. You are now broke and probably in debt; effectively doing emotional and financial damage to anyone who loved or depended on you because you were easily affected by Satan's demoralizing propaganda and subsequently neutered as a conscious and knowledgeable threat to him. So I don't really think you're "woke" at all. You sound like you "get it" less than the average person. Go pay a shrink to put you back together, and try again if that's still a viable option.

You don’t need much to be happy. But it starts with honesty across the board. It’s definitely hard to play along when necessary and I assume there are far more fed up like us than we know.

Withdraw is an easy bunker but your country needs you. Humanity needs all of us to stand tall and steak our flame to reality. Enough of us stand up to the insanity they will become the lunatic fringe and we the reasonable majority. You are not alone in these tendencies, but have faith in our collective intelligence. More and more wake up every day as their evil deeds, methods and alliances are exposed. Slow bleed the sons of bitches is far more effective than trying to take them down in one shot.

Yes a lot of us do you are not alone.

I’ve lived the exact situation u speak of. I live off the land now, working a few hours a day. I too am living off savings. I wanted to mention that with regard to not being able to be around those still in the mattix.... my son lives with his lib mother in another state and he’s vehemently anti trump and all into the Hollywood etc. my relationship with him isn’t the same anymore. I don’t get to see him often and so each time we do, I find we r separating more and more. This needs to come to an end and everyone needs to know the truth.

At least in the military we could seek help. We had support and friends that understood. We knew our superiors were real! I honestly can’t see how Q would be a larp. All I know is I’m alone except for you guys. I’ve had some pretty bad thoughts. This thing dragging on is getting harder and harder to deal with. Especially when being real like this gets you the label of shill. Fuck my life.

I have a similar experience but a different outcome.

Fully understanding the actual way of the WORLD you describe above, I have found a way to over power it.

That way is joining Jesus Christ as a freedom fighter in this world. I use his authorization and power to win as many people to the truth as I can.

Enjoying every day, I relish the position of knowing that my side is on the path to victory and that traitors will end up in a torturous hell forever.

I think it's better to try and exploit the system from the inside. Like that libertarian meme: taking over the world to get rid of big government, lies and corruption. I want the machine to swallow me whole, so I can destroy it from the inside, disguised as a normie, but really a deep cover white nationalist. Freedom, justice and securing the existence of our people. There is no inherent meaning to anything, but you can set your own goals and create meaning for yourself. You can't let the bleak outlook of the big picture get to you too much, just focus on your individual achievement and finding a nice wife to have 3 white babies with. I think it's a worthy goal. I won't let anything stop me from achieving this simple goal. It's not too much to ask for. Our ancestors all prevailed under circumstances that were much worse than what we face today. Focus on a worthy goal and blend out the distractions.

When you no longer find yourself playing the game, you'll end up in a place that actively works to try and destroy it. The goal is to never have your eyes shut again. Good luck.

Wow I could have written that... you need to get yourself property and then live a frugal life. Cease to continue playing their game. I don't work anymore... fuck fuelling the fake system. Feel sorry for those woke around me who still are stuck in the rent trap though... where there's a will there's a way though.

I get that you are constantly looking for reassurance that everything's going to be alright. It will be. You don't have to continuously watch the pot to see if it's boiling. It's depressing to do this. The sheep part of people is only a part of them. There is a lot of good in people even if they're still asleep. Connect with people who are not into the Great Awakening yet. Take a break from it. Also, the hobbies you were doing before can still be enjoyable. The Alliance doesn't need you to keep a vigil on what they're doing for them to succeed. Trust the plan. Think positive. Good will prevail. The more all of us think positive the more quickly and successful the Great Awakening will happen. Also, pray. This is a very powerful way to assist the White Hats and keep them safe.

Yes.

I feel exactly like u but I have no financial stability and will never be able to retire. My dream is to live like you do. Stop whining.

☝️☝️☝️this.

Had I not been born into a cult and wasted the first 3 decades of my life, I may have pulled off your life. Late to the woke game, but very much striving to minimize and avoid as much of NPC life as possible.

I've been awake since 9/11. I was 18 at the time, but didn't pay much attention until the polarizing election of 2016. That's around the time pizzagate hit and I really woke up.

I'm still very much in the rat race though. My wife is not awake and we have a pretty comfortable life with no kids. Why bring a child into this slave world, right? As much as I want one, I just can't bare to breed another slave.

I don't know where all of this is going to go. We must be cautiously optimistic. For all we know, Q team could lose this war, then we're really fucked. We really don't know the half of what's going on, so just be cautious people. Stock up on food, water, and necessities. Watch your back, and your families back. Just try to enjoy life as much as possible with hobbies that don't require money, and slowly redpill as many people as you can!

Hi, are you me?!

I completely understand, OP.

Especially this part: I can't even interact with people who still believe the fake world is real. I just can't do it.

I am in the middle of the belly of the beast. I exist in an extremely politically correct environment. I'm sometimes at a dinner with coworkers and they are talking about how they are so proud of working on Hillary's 2016 campaign, etc.

I don't care anymore. I throughly believe that most people who don't reason from first principles and assemble reality through logical deconstruction and reconstruction of their beliefs are the product of what information sources they consume and find credible. These Hillary supporters consume junk food and garbage information and rely on authority figures to understand reality for them so they are brainwashed and they can't help themselves.

I think being a Jew it's just my nature to not care what other people think and pretend to be part of the group, but secretly hold my own beliefs. There's a reason we haven't been converted to other religions for 3000 years even with constant societal pressure to do so. I have to fake emotions a lot. I don't find most jokes funny. I always ditched pep rallies in high school or anything where there was a big crowd of people all slavishly entranced by some spectacle. Peter Drucker always talked about how he used to ditch patriotic youth marches in Prussia because there was something just so wrong about them.

In the same way I can see the world as a big fucked up game played by the cabal vs. the good guys and all the normies in the middle who are so easily manipulated and dragged around by their emotions.

I'm always thinking at these politically correct goosesteppers: you people are soooo brainwashed. I often come up with all sorts of little games to play with their contradictory belief structures to try and cause cognitive dissonance to help them carve out little areas of sanity in their life free from the brainwashed psychosis they live in.

It's easy enough to slip into elitism, but I know that's a trap that leads to narcissism and delusion. I always have to think, even though this person is broken in some ways, how can I bring out the best in them and help them to achieve their potential in a way that respects their human dignity.

I feel the same way about the world now, though I don't have anyone to share it with. My wife is a normie and gets very angry when I try to tell her things aren't what they seem. When I first found Q in March I fell Into the rabbit hole and did a swan dive. I cried tears of saddness and Joy, lost sleep for a few weeks. Now I am trapped, my friends ignore me and my home is filled with silence.

I am Dutch and a 17 y/o male, and people around me luckily arent really into politics, but they are all sheep... Amazing people, but I'm the only one who knows about Q and dont want to talk about this Q stuff because its mainly US still, and dont want being called a 'conspiracy theorist', or sound 'extremist' when I say that 'everything is a lie'.

I just want the natural order of things to return, like family, nations and all that stuff, not a fake & engineered life.

I know what you mean. I've noticed a severe drop in my motivation to do many things (especially work). I can't stop thinking about all the corruption and "fakery" we've been part of and wondering when will SHTF and the truth finally be exposed. I have family members that are almost impossible to talk to without politics coming into play...and then an argument ensues. While I'm looking forward to seeing all my extended family at Christmas......I'm also kind of not.

I can relate. ((((((((hugs))))))))

While I haven't minimized quite as much, much of what the world has to offer no longer interests me all that much. Music, movies, tv, etc. I can't watch or listen to any of it. Their symbolism really is everywhere and it's right in your face. However only if you know what that symbolism is. (It really will be their downfall once enough people wake up to it.)

Just what is "The Event" anyway? I have seen it mentioned a few times before, but haven't gotten a straight answer. I feel like I am asking NASA a question. lol

Being a newbie in the real deep shit since Q started, I've been falling falling falling into that abyss and nobody around me to truly engage. Lonely as hell. I could use a support group of some sort. Someone with years of experience could really help newbies out by sharing info on how to emotionally deal, instead of just constantly pumping out rabbit hole info...

I can’t blame you. For some of us with wife and children is a lot harder. We are part of the America that has no savings and must enslaved ourselves because in the end no matter how much I want out, my wife and kids depend on me. But there are so many days where I feel outside of the system looking in and participating by force. It is stressful and sometimes my wife thinks I am out to lunch. I’m just desilusioned with the lies. And I worry about my children and pray and am optimistic about the future. It’s tough Patriot. Very very tough th to live knowing it’s all an illusion created by psychopaths.

if you no longer go to church you can still pray. After pizzagate I started praying again, it helps me cope with the evil...good luck patriot wwg1wga

Why do you watch Hollywood movies prior to 1973? Are you crazy?

Once you know the truth, the illusion is shattered forever. Consider yourself fortunate and blessed, you've ascended beyond what most people cannot even perceive.

I'm right there with you. I've been feeling the same way since the sandy hook episode. Moved as south as south could take me and set up in a very small rural community. The day can't come soon enough to rid the world of the filth that's taken control of what we all hold dear to us.

Grow your own food. Fruit trees. Permaculture. Take control of your own health. Hyperlocalism. American grown 1st

For me it's mostly movies/series that I can't no longer watch and enjoy - and sometimes women. I'm 30+ and in my twenties I used to sleep around a lot, but nowadays lost interest in dating completely, because either they have issues or they're boring/stuck up/bluepilled galore

Dark night of the soul. Usually goes hand in hand with awakening. Wait until you get to the next levels. Lmao

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Im a woman and feel it too. Luckily I'm married to someone who understands the rabbit hole as well. Keep standing on principle.

I was into alot of conspiracy's like 9/11 and other false flags, but pizzagate was a big wake up for me and i got deep into the rabbit hole, couldn't sleep for days and fell into a depression, had to stop everything for a while. I'm better now but life isn't as fun anymore and I'm still waiting for the arrests to happen before i can heal fully.

THIS THIS THIS

I would bet there are ALOT more than you would think.

Just sitting and waiting............Jesus Where Are You?

Uh, great story man. Has this board just become a place for people to vent about their personal difficulties?

Bunch of garbage being posted and upvoted this past week.

Right there with ya OP! Just having to interact with them on an as infrequent basis is way over-taxing. See ya on the other side

Feel fortunate that you do not have kids, anon. For those of us who do, there is very little choice but to continue to grind in the "real" world.

Yes you are not alone. Ever since the day Trump started running and we learned more and more about the bad people in this world my whole reality now on the world and how it functions has changed me, and I too just sit and wait for the day to finally come. I research all the time and constantly on the internet and just wasn't that way for me before we got Trump

We got rid of everything and live on a boat. True freedom. I look at all the shit they try to sell to us, try to convince us that we need and I am horrified. I watch a movie and see all of the embedded propaganda. The world sure looks different to me.

I quit my job earlier this year too, I moved and found that I can easily live off my savings if I focus on being frugal and investing properly. I have very very strong suspicions that my old boss has pedo-ties, and it's possible I was targeted. It's not that this world is fake, it's that we're all slaves (mentally and physically), many of us have shaken the chains, but we don't know where or how to start rebuilding. I hope Q will guide us down the right paths when the time comes, but until then I'm just trying to arm myself with knowledge and faith.

I don't think I'm anywhere close to the finish line, but I do feel like I'm finally on the right path (certainly relative to everyone else I know). It started with my obsession over the Truth (generally re hidden knowledge / conspiracy theories), but it's blossomed into a renewed relationship with God, and a newfound focus on family (and very close friends).

One thing that's helped me socialize with people who are ignorant is to play the role of the fool; use your pride as a tool to ask silly leading questions, and hold any opinion that is useful in guiding perception. (essentially ask stupid NPC questions and force them to argue against it)

Same here.

I used to have friends until I couldn't take their fake life, liberal bullshit any more.

I've seen life at its best and worst: you can't sugar coat any of it.

Do what's best for you.

Our experiences sounds a lot alike. I am seriously considering turning off the computer to go along with the TV and cell phone.

Well said. You are definitely not alone.

That's called a psychotic break. Help is available.

I'd say your story is not uncommon here. Those who know cannot sleep. Justice can not come fast enough...

There's a saying: "The truth shall set you free".

How do you reconcile this with what you are experiencing?

5:5 patriot.

I understand. I somehow stumbled upon Q on day one and I've been riveted now for over a year. I was awake somewhat before Q but what I know now has me trying to figure out how to move forward in my life and find happiness and meaning. I have finally come to the conclusion that I have to lead my life as I would have if I never learned what I've learned. I don't know if I will succeed but I'm going to try. I have to break the addiction of needing to know immediately what comes next. I'm tired of living in fear and need to trust Q team and Trump are doing all they can. I'm not saying I'm going to stop supporting the movement but I need to get a grip. Btw, I'm a woman, not all of us are shallow and materialistic.

I feel the same way. I resent that so many fond memories of my childhood and "how things were" are built on a lie. A house of lies. On the other hand, I am hopeful that what we are moving towards might be better than any of our nostalgic memories of a fake past. I can't even watch It's a Wonderful Life anymore without cynicism. Or Grover/Sesame Street. Certainly Disney is ruined forever, although truth be told I was never a huge Mickey Fan. Give me Charlie Brown and Snoopy over Mickey any day. BTW, anyone reading, please resist the temptation to ruin Charles Schultz for me. If it's out there, I REALLY don't want to know.

We are addicted to the TRUTH. I think local Alliance groups would help our mental health....give us some practical topics (e.g., preparations) to give us a bit of control within this backdrop of vast EVILNESS that we now find ourselves living within.

You are not alone, brother. I may not know as much as you but feel the same way.

Yes, my eyes are glued to my screen. I would rather be reading and searching for what could happen next than leave my house. There is no point in being around sheep. Before the midterms I spend as much time possible online trying to help candidates. Now I am still online and hoping the fraudulent elections get overturned. My behavior resembles a junkie.

Of course this is one reaction. You must feel safe with what you have.

I on the other hand, engage passionately in this rat race these days, not because I believe in it, but because I know the doom that awaits me if the house comes down before I am adequately prepared.