For the past year I've had dreams where I kill a lot of people. Sometimes I get caught and the dream makes it all the way to court. It varies but follows the same general formula. I always wake up next to my wife, happy and relieved that it was a dream. I don't want my family to hate me.

There's that idea that only 1% of the population needs to actually fight in a war, and everyone else is a neutral party looking for security that follows the winning team. It makes sense if most people have the comfort, but not the time or energy to follow anything political. The news takes advantage of that and acts as the biggest source of propaganda. It's easily acquired and shared headlines with lies surrounding truth in the beginning and end. There's always sound bytes or some other repeated lie that's so bold no one would be willing to risk his reputation and call it what it is. People put up with this primarily because of comfort.

What is comfort, and how long can it outweigh someone's desire for privacy or other innate needs in Europeans? If I made a machine that wiped everyone's ass for them, surely that'd be a higher level of comfort. It'd give them more time to engage in other activities than wiping their ass. It doesn't make anyone happier. They're still going to be stomped on or treated like human cattle at every opportunity. But now they have slightly more comfort, so obviously they shouldn't complain. I don't think it stacks up like that. We have comfortable toilets, showers, easy access to food, and any amount of sports ball we want. We have dish washers and clothes washers that minimize the amount of inconvenient work we have to do. After a certain point that we've passed long ago, they're all just glorified ass wiping machines. Luxuries and comfort can't hold back our innate desires forever.

I know we don't have much time to realize this; at this rate, one or two more generations is all we have left. I've decided I'll take the coward's way out. I'll move as far away from non-whites as possible, work hard, buy miles of land, and live a comfortable life. I'll have 10 children and teach them right from wrong. We live in a world where everyone will tell them to do wrong, and it's something that has to be resisted. Everyone will insist that wrong is right and right is wrong. Morals are unscientific, and may get you ostracized. They need to be stronger than that. I see that as the bare minimum I could do. I just want to buy another 25 years, for another generation to do what I am unwilling to do. I am so demoralized that neither hatred or love can move me now. I will live a full, easy life knowing that I've traded my soul for a bunch of ass-wiping machines and a bit of hope.

I also want people to know that there are many people in the judicial system that are sympathetic to our cause. It's horribly infested by jews but we are here.