I honestly wish all Whites should have literally killed off all of us nonwhites including myself, it would have been a form of mercy from our own suffering because of our genetic retardation and utter lack of respect and understanding of mother nature. The third world has always been the true case of the average shitskin's stupidity, and when they are given any form of the least bit of sympathy from whites, we all turn into arrogant, entitled morons who think le ebil whitey owes us everything, including their lives. I live with a quite dysfunctional family that suffers from a kind of "feel good" kind of mentality. When life kicks our shit in, we turn on each other, and my mother yells at me and my siblings for all her woes and hardships.

It's quite obvious she was never even remotely mentally prepared to have three kids, with two including myself attending college, which is teaching us worthless lectures about how to open and use fucking MS Word properly. When she "mellows down", suddenly all is forgiven because "we can all make it through" in her own words, too bad it doesn't wipe away the reality of you and your stupid family tree living in tin shacks covered in literal bullshit for generations to come.

This is the viscous cycle that I keep seeing. It starts from an argument about our financial problems and then devolves into a conversation about how amazing some Hollyjew movie was. So my questions here is, why did the white colonialists of old thought of the idea that we were somehow deserving of a life? What did they see in us that made them think that we deserved to be spared? If time travel was real, would any /pol/acks here in this board go back in time and then use every artillery that you have to kill all of us shitskins? I sure hope so, honestly.

She doesn't want me to kill myself because the local law enforcement would investigate on my death, and possibly she will be accused of murder. Oh and divorce isn't a thing here, so I can't kill myself either on my father's home because both would be accused of murder.