Is our biggest issue our own hate? I'll save the essay , but while hate is a counter to hate it gives birth to even more hate than you banished in many cases. There is a different between abusing a child and holding them accountable.

I am full of hate. There are things that happened when I was ten I still am mad about. In a way it's good to remember people at their core. To prevent falling back its good to revisit why you are here now. Is the next stage of evolution separating that from our minds to view what we hate in a less emotional manner?

The most powerful person will be the one who can view a student acting up and without any traditional punishment tactics nudge them in the right direction. Every murderer ever was once somebody that thousands of people had the opportunity to give alternatives to.

By being hateful you condition yourself to only seek the hateful solutions.

I could go on but whatever, the point is, am I justifying my slavery , or can we really create our own reality and "reap what we sow"? If a tiger approaches you in the jungle hungry as fuck, is there a Jedi skill which will allow one type of person avoid death while the hateful person gets killed? Doesn't one person looking cool hating always lead to ten people thinking that hate works sometimes?

It's tough to even type these words because this isnt a typical thought and it suggests I am weak. I tried the sacrifice for others path and after thorough testing it leads nowhere. The results could be a million years away though and just the spark the world needed.

Would a positive outlook not attract others to you? I don't want to give up on my beliefs no matter what, but it's getting tiring isolating myself from the entire world. As corrupted as it staring at the problem works.

I am ashamed at my self for even suggesting surrendering but life isnt just yes or no it's a yes a no a yes a yes a no a no , a problem may involve sympathy, then violence, then ignorance, then urgent action, there is no one size fits all solution.

I think the correct answer is you attempt to find a middle ground with your enemy and then if nothing is found you destroy them, but good enemies will hide amongst those you are intending to protect and make you look evil for holding them accountable.

I'm going so far as saying I will not seek any form of ego boost at my enemies expense. No gossiping, let things slide, aim for the same endgame but take a longer and easier path. The thrill of the troll is gone even if the targets deserve it more than ever. if I was superior to these people, though, then why would I need to bring myself down to their level?