I am a Canadian and severely demoralized.

I don't know what to even life for. I have no community. My family is line is dying out in the country as everyone related to me is refusing to have children. I'm the only one that wants a wife and children but every woman I've ever encountered and asked about it is a hardline anti-natalist that flat out refuses to be a wife and have children, won't even consider it as a "maybe", they just plain won't have them.

Every day I feel like a lone survivor in a wasteland, surrounded by zombies. Every day is this horrible nightmare, and when I was much younger, I don't remember it being like this. It's like I've been transported into an alternate reality called "clown world" where nothing good can ever happen and all the people are fucked in the head but me.

My parents seem incredibly angry and disappointed at me all the time that I eat healthy, that I work out, that I keep things clean, that I maintain discipline, that I want to have a wife and children, that I don't want to be a homosexual. I think all they were hoping for is I'd be some fucked up druggy homo freak and they're mad they got a National Socialist instead.

I badly need a /pol/ friend to keep me company. Someone who is like me. Someone who understands me.