I don't know about this one! He sounds sincere, but when answering the questioned related to how he feels about the hypersexualizatipn of children, his answerws are pretty scary!
He admits to being raped analy as a child, which caused him to throw tantrums the next two times that was attempted because he was so scared. But then he says none of his sexual experiences were traumatic in themselves? It's really how society views children and having sex that made him feel bad or ashamed? He says that children having sex isn't inherently bad. Really? This guy sounds like a pedophile. Now maybe that's because he's been so manipulated and abused he can't really see what's "normal" and what isn't. Or maybe because of his abuse he now has those tendencies. Either way this is very sad and I hope he gets some help.
What I found disturbing are reader comments who ignore the fact that this man is nothing more than a damaged little boy on the inside as they make sexual innuendo’s towards him. How messed up is that!?
So far as his attitude that his sexual experiences weren’t traumatic in and of themselves... you have to bear in mind that he seemed to have it pretty easy so far as child sexual slavery goes, you know what I mean? So I think that’s why his attitude is a little more nonchalant than what some of us would expect.
I felt the same way. I know 4chan is full of larp but it made me uncomfortably to see others continuing to sexualize him. On the whole, he has a lot of light still within. Although he is confused and has suffered greatly he has hope for his future. He also sees what is within and chooses not to abuse others or have kids and propagate them. This man was never loved properly, but instinctively he continues to live and seek to improve. That's impressive in my book.
I think the reason some of those guys are able to make suggestive comments to the OP is that they haven't seen or met an abused child in person or an adult who was abused as a child. You'll never make those kinds of jokes after you have.
I was also very disturbed by the OPs thoughts about children having sexual experiences not inherently being bad. It sounds like for him being bad would mean it would have to be scary or cause physical pain. I got the impression he looks back on his time with them ambivalently and even positively.
I participated in sexual activity from when I was about 5 or 6 with kids from my school who were about the same age as me. I vaguely remember there was a group of us. I don't associate trauma or pain with those memories but that doesn't mean it wasn't bad. I think back on it and feel angry that it happened.
This is why I think only the OP could say it's not inherently bad. But I think his thoughts on this matter are worthless because sadly he does not think like a regular, healthy person. That's just the cold, sad truth of the matter. How can he?
He's only 25 and there will be many more years of him trying to process his early years, and I think he's far from out of the woods. There's a reason most pedophile abuse victims kill themselves. I know only too well. I think the OP may yet have many dark days ahead. I'm not optimistic about his future.
The pre-teen and early puberty sexual behaviors I engaged in are bad and I now suspect one or more of the kids from my school was being abused by someone in their family and passed on the behaviors to the rest of us 'on the playground' so to speak. I do have one particular memory of a much older girl taking me into the tall grass and pushing me back into the grass. I have no memory of what happened next. Yes. I really fucking wish this didn't happen in my life even though I don't associate trauma with the memories themselves.
If I could speak to the OP I'd encourage him to get high-grade help. Just because he's gone 10 years without abusing someone else doesn't mean he won't sometime in the next 50-60 years of his life.
The 4chan OP will NEVER not have arousal potential towards older women, kids, or ANYONE with whom he has been sexual as a youth due, in part, to the fact his nervous system is now hardwired to respond to these stimuli in an erotic manner.
Similar to negative PTSD causing dramatic reversion to earlier traumas, orgasm-inducing events carve permanent pathways in developing youths' brains that never leave.
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Shizy ago
I don't know about this one! He sounds sincere, but when answering the questioned related to how he feels about the hypersexualizatipn of children, his answerws are pretty scary!
He admits to being raped analy as a child, which caused him to throw tantrums the next two times that was attempted because he was so scared. But then he says none of his sexual experiences were traumatic in themselves? It's really how society views children and having sex that made him feel bad or ashamed? He says that children having sex isn't inherently bad. Really? This guy sounds like a pedophile. Now maybe that's because he's been so manipulated and abused he can't really see what's "normal" and what isn't. Or maybe because of his abuse he now has those tendencies. Either way this is very sad and I hope he gets some help.
Joe10jo ago
What I found disturbing are reader comments who ignore the fact that this man is nothing more than a damaged little boy on the inside as they make sexual innuendo’s towards him. How messed up is that!?
So far as his attitude that his sexual experiences weren’t traumatic in and of themselves... you have to bear in mind that he seemed to have it pretty easy so far as child sexual slavery goes, you know what I mean? So I think that’s why his attitude is a little more nonchalant than what some of us would expect.
awake4646 ago
I felt the same way. I know 4chan is full of larp but it made me uncomfortably to see others continuing to sexualize him. On the whole, he has a lot of light still within. Although he is confused and has suffered greatly he has hope for his future. He also sees what is within and chooses not to abuse others or have kids and propagate them. This man was never loved properly, but instinctively he continues to live and seek to improve. That's impressive in my book.
clearthoughts04 ago
I think the reason some of those guys are able to make suggestive comments to the OP is that they haven't seen or met an abused child in person or an adult who was abused as a child. You'll never make those kinds of jokes after you have.
I was also very disturbed by the OPs thoughts about children having sexual experiences not inherently being bad. It sounds like for him being bad would mean it would have to be scary or cause physical pain. I got the impression he looks back on his time with them ambivalently and even positively.
I participated in sexual activity from when I was about 5 or 6 with kids from my school who were about the same age as me. I vaguely remember there was a group of us. I don't associate trauma or pain with those memories but that doesn't mean it wasn't bad. I think back on it and feel angry that it happened.
This is why I think only the OP could say it's not inherently bad. But I think his thoughts on this matter are worthless because sadly he does not think like a regular, healthy person. That's just the cold, sad truth of the matter. How can he?
He's only 25 and there will be many more years of him trying to process his early years, and I think he's far from out of the woods. There's a reason most pedophile abuse victims kill themselves. I know only too well. I think the OP may yet have many dark days ahead. I'm not optimistic about his future.
The pre-teen and early puberty sexual behaviors I engaged in are bad and I now suspect one or more of the kids from my school was being abused by someone in their family and passed on the behaviors to the rest of us 'on the playground' so to speak. I do have one particular memory of a much older girl taking me into the tall grass and pushing me back into the grass. I have no memory of what happened next. Yes. I really fucking wish this didn't happen in my life even though I don't associate trauma with the memories themselves.
If I could speak to the OP I'd encourage him to get high-grade help. Just because he's gone 10 years without abusing someone else doesn't mean he won't sometime in the next 50-60 years of his life.
Onetime1 ago
The 4chan OP will NEVER not have arousal potential towards older women, kids, or ANYONE with whom he has been sexual as a youth due, in part, to the fact his nervous system is now hardwired to respond to these stimuli in an erotic manner.
Similar to negative PTSD causing dramatic reversion to earlier traumas, orgasm-inducing events carve permanent pathways in developing youths' brains that never leave.