Zoe, don't know where to start. Many thanks for this interview that parallels my own. Fugue States helps me understand it. I've so many memories of extra ordinary situations, that seem to have happened while I was also elsewhere. It screws with my reality now, many decades later. Knowing but not sure.
Uncles, that seem to have had two lives. A deep horror of the Masonic - Scottish Rites Stone Buildings in every tiny town. This was long before my memories came back. Writing them down before speaking them, as described by Cathy O'brien has worked well for me. You write for yourself, pen on paper is off the internet Just the name the Finders is hard to write.
Then the retelling becomes less emotion laden for yourself and the listener. My attempts to share with close people, has created a distance I regret. So wish it was possible for MK'd people to share without the oversite of abusers like EC and DH etc. Doesn't seem physically practical, oh well. Some few try here.
The discussion of meditation connections to toxic thought connected, bless you. Helped me understand why I'm avoiding my past efforts in this direction. Service to others, on the good days, is where I'm at.
Thank you for your courage in opening up. There are other genuine survivors here as well. There are our resident asshole shills - Cheesebooger, Are_We_Shart and the Donkeyfags. ignore them and take nothing they say seriously.
Would love to connect with other survivors. I'm sick of people rolling their eyes when I bring this up. The documents were released by Bill Clinton which detailed the MK-Ultra experiments, yet people refuse to believe that this goes on. I serve on boards, act as judge in scholastic competitions, volunteer in the community, etc. I'm constantly being complimented on my gifts, yet if I bring any of this up, people think I'm delusional. Thank you for your encouragement.
They just don't get it. It's too scary and overwhelming for people to believe these things actually happen. If they would
Only look at history and what documents the government has released (like you said) they would see the truth. They just choose not to
Thank you so much for having the courage to figure out what has happened to you ! This past 2 years has brought so much to light and is helping so many people! I will continue to research your story . I pray that you stay safe and strong!
We need to have a safe forum where we can discuss this. There are "targeted individual" sites, but frankly the threads are full of of meandering claims that sound outlandish and I believe they are heavily infiltrated by disinfo agents. You can email me at [email protected]. Perhaps we can find a way to collaborate.
Targeted is me to the bone. God I’d love to just spill my guts to someone who understands!
No where to run. No where to hide. And of course I’m crazy.
Thank you!
Zoe on being introduced to eastern practice like transcendental meditation discovers that it is eerily similar and necessarily the same as any other pagan ritual:
"There's all kinds of occultist "secret initiation" elements to it, your told to bring a white handkerchief, a piece of fruit, your told your mantra in secrecy and told to never to speak it, it turns out these mantras are based on these frequencies, these sounds where you're incanting the names of these underworld deities"
"James Wedgwood ...was caught cottaging by the police - 18 lavatories in two hours - he said with hauteur that he was searching for a friend known in a previous life."
I didnt know this mans story but it left my heart aching. He is amazing speaking out amongst these upper class British estsblishment types and about the sickening culture in their schools....here is a quote from the article St Johns Wood to remind us of the damage...
James writes: "It isn’t abuse when a 40-year-old man forces his cock inside a six-year-old boy's ass ...That is aggressive rape.
"It leads to multiple surgeries, scars [inside and out], tics, OCD, depression, suicidal ideation, vigorous self-harm, alcoholism, drug addiction, the most fucked-up of sexual hangups, gender confusion [‘you look like a girl, are you sure you’re not a little girl?’], sexuality confusion, paranoia, mistrust, compulsive lying, eating disorders, PTSD, DID [the shinier name for multiple personality disorder] and so on and on and on..."
Hi Zoeozbird. I saw that you claim you are a monarch test subject in another thread. Welcome, I praise you for the strength you needed to come forward. You are among those that care. You are among those that understand your confusion, pain and anger. I know how hard it is to live, functional and kind, but with behaviors and moods that spiral into nothing but chaos, dependency and substance abuse. You are not alone.
Sofia is an unbelievable patron of kindness and truth and one of the most amazing researchers, I'm glad you found someone who's heart is as true as her intention.
SavedbyJCfromRSA_MK ago
Zoe, don't know where to start. Many thanks for this interview that parallels my own. Fugue States helps me understand it. I've so many memories of extra ordinary situations, that seem to have happened while I was also elsewhere. It screws with my reality now, many decades later. Knowing but not sure.
Uncles, that seem to have had two lives. A deep horror of the Masonic - Scottish Rites Stone Buildings in every tiny town. This was long before my memories came back. Writing them down before speaking them, as described by Cathy O'brien has worked well for me. You write for yourself, pen on paper is off the internet Just the name the Finders is hard to write.
Then the retelling becomes less emotion laden for yourself and the listener. My attempts to share with close people, has created a distance I regret. So wish it was possible for MK'd people to share without the oversite of abusers like EC and DH etc. Doesn't seem physically practical, oh well. Some few try here.
The discussion of meditation connections to toxic thought connected, bless you. Helped me understand why I'm avoiding my past efforts in this direction. Service to others, on the good days, is where I'm at.
Blacksmith21 ago
Thank you for your courage in opening up. There are other genuine survivors here as well. There are our resident asshole shills - Cheesebooger, Are_We_Shart and the Donkeyfags. ignore them and take nothing they say seriously.
Shizy ago
I vote random101 for that shillhole list
zoeozbird ago
Would love to connect with other survivors. I'm sick of people rolling their eyes when I bring this up. The documents were released by Bill Clinton which detailed the MK-Ultra experiments, yet people refuse to believe that this goes on. I serve on boards, act as judge in scholastic competitions, volunteer in the community, etc. I'm constantly being complimented on my gifts, yet if I bring any of this up, people think I'm delusional. Thank you for your encouragement.
Shizy ago
They just don't get it. It's too scary and overwhelming for people to believe these things actually happen. If they would Only look at history and what documents the government has released (like you said) they would see the truth. They just choose not to
Cc1914 ago
Thank you so much for having the courage to figure out what has happened to you ! This past 2 years has brought so much to light and is helping so many people! I will continue to research your story . I pray that you stay safe and strong!
zoeozbird ago
thank you!
Samime ago
I just finish your interview with Sophia Smallstorm. I have the same experiences and no one to talk to. I am trying not to vomit right now.
zoeozbird ago
We need to have a safe forum where we can discuss this. There are "targeted individual" sites, but frankly the threads are full of of meandering claims that sound outlandish and I believe they are heavily infiltrated by disinfo agents. You can email me at [email protected]. Perhaps we can find a way to collaborate.
Samime ago
Targeted is me to the bone. God I’d love to just spill my guts to someone who understands! No where to run. No where to hide. And of course I’m crazy. Thank you!
Cheesebooger ago
oy vey
Blacksmith21 ago
Fuck you asshole shill.
Cheesebooger ago
I seem to have struck a nerve oy to the vey
ASolo ago
Sofia Smallstorm interviews Zoe SpeedOfLight MK Ultra
ASolo ago
Sofia Smallstorm interviews Zoe SpeedOfLight MK Ultra at 26:00 mark
Zoe on being introduced to eastern practice like transcendental meditation discovers that it is eerily similar and necessarily the same as any other pagan ritual:
"There's all kinds of occultist "secret initiation" elements to it, your told to bring a white handkerchief, a piece of fruit, your told your mantra in secrecy and told to never to speak it, it turns out these mantras are based on these frequencies, these sounds where you're incanting the names of these underworld deities"
ASolo ago
“It is no measure of health to be well adjusted to a profoundly sick society.” - Krishnamurti
Charles Leadbeater (right) (Krishnamurti as a young boy left)
Let us look at a typical cult, some of whose leaders lived for a time in Hampstead in London.
"The story of Krishnamurti sums it all up: from juvenile sex-object to inspiration of a million-dollar guru-business in 1920s California."
How to peddle your own guru.
Charles Leadbeater liked boys.
James Wedgwood liked boys.
"James Wedgwood ...was caught cottaging by the police - 18 lavatories in two hours - he said with hauteur that he was searching for a friend known in a previous life."
How to peddle your own guru.
Leadbeater and Wedgewood set up the Liberal Catholic Church.
Leadbeater and Wedgwood were also top people in the Theosophy Movement.
Leadbeater took a keen interest in the boy children of the Theosophists.
Aangirfan
http://aanirfan.blogspot.com/2015/04/krishnamurti.html
squarcle ago
"Cottaging" lol. I learned a new word, thanks.
ASolo ago
Alisa and Gabriel
Elements of the Elite know how to torture a child in order to produce Multiple Personality Disorder, and hence a sex slave.
Hampstead is next to St John's Wood
finska ago
I didnt know this mans story but it left my heart aching. He is amazing speaking out amongst these upper class British estsblishment types and about the sickening culture in their schools....here is a quote from the article St Johns Wood to remind us of the damage...
James writes: "It isn’t abuse when a 40-year-old man forces his cock inside a six-year-old boy's ass ...That is aggressive rape.
"It leads to multiple surgeries, scars [inside and out], tics, OCD, depression, suicidal ideation, vigorous self-harm, alcoholism, drug addiction, the most fucked-up of sexual hangups, gender confusion [‘you look like a girl, are you sure you’re not a little girl?’], sexuality confusion, paranoia, mistrust, compulsive lying, eating disorders, PTSD, DID [the shinier name for multiple personality disorder] and so on and on and on..."
ASolo ago
Sofia Smallstorm Interviews MK Ultra Zoe
ASolo ago
Hi Zoeozbird. I saw that you claim you are a monarch test subject in another thread. Welcome, I praise you for the strength you needed to come forward. You are among those that care. You are among those that understand your confusion, pain and anger. I know how hard it is to live, functional and kind, but with behaviors and moods that spiral into nothing but chaos, dependency and substance abuse. You are not alone.
Sofia is an unbelievable patron of kindness and truth and one of the most amazing researchers, I'm glad you found someone who's heart is as true as her intention.
I look forward to understanding your story.
God Bless.
zoeozbird ago
thank you for the kind words...so appreciated.