Thank you. I'll be sure to read Allison Miller. I believe, like any other system, therapy is a mixed bag, and PTSD specifically, I assume processing and going through the trauma(s) isn't as productive as one assumes. I think holistic care is ideal, but our healthcare system does not support this, and many therapists are unequipped to deal with complex trauma. Sadly, those that feel the most alone in their suffering are affected, and the failure of our doctors affirms our rightfully cynical outlook. I'm grateful to have found my current therapist, though it's bankrupting me. At this point, I don't care, as I would have killed myself long ago if I didn't get treatment.

The hardest part for me now, as I have fallen apart completely, lost everything after my last hospitalisation: marriage, job, friends. I've spent a year trying to get back on my feet. Thankfully my Mom is helping me out, but I'm ashamed of myself as a 32-year-old man. I'm conflicted as she is in denial about how she enabled the abuse, neglecting and abandoning me. It's useless trying to talk about with her, as she immediately takes it as a personal attack. I suppose I still resent her. She asks me what I want; I say just to listen. She locks herself in her room instead.