You are not alone, we are in this together and I too get down and even sometimes it carries into my dreams. Do not give up, even if you feel you are not contributing; you are with us and numbers will be our advantage. One or two people with a 'theory' can easily be called 'mad'(crazy) but when there are thousands and thousands of us demanding answers it will get us through and for the ones who tease us slowly but surely they start one by one researching and realizing why people are so invested in this. Not just for the children and adult victims but for bloody humanity!!