I assure you, I am not LARPing. Unfortunately, and I guess unbelievably, all of these things I'm about to say are either true, or things I have come to believe. I believe "Pizzagate" is falling prey to the same paranoid distractions that have kept most of America diverted away from the real 'conspiracy' of 9/11-- that it was funded and carried out by high-ranking Saudi Arabians, some of the United State's closest "allies." I won't go into that here, but I'm using this as an example-- Whether or not it's intentional distraction and misdirection doesn't matter. Conspiracy hunters get caught up in the puzzle pieces, and miss the larger picture. And I am fairly certain Pizzagate is missing the forest for the trees, because the forest, in this case, will sound crazy to some.

I am going to cut to the chase, and then explain how I came to believe it-- not just because of my experiences, but because of my past; my heritage, and being in the [right/wrong] place at the [right/wrong] time.

Currently, I am writing about this and intend to publish using my real name, because I believe the time is coming for these things to come to light, and I am far from the only one, though I am one of the most public-facing [bold/stupid] ones.

Magic is real, but it's not quite what you think. The Illuminati is real, but it's not quite what you think. Ceremonial pedophilia is real, but it's not quite what you think. And the world, and our species is about to change very dramatically, and it's more profound than 'draining a swamp' or 'financial collapse.' It could be good or bad, depending on if we can begin to see what's going on, before it's too late.

I have what has been termed PTSD, ADD, Bipolar Disorder, and manic depression. I believe I have symptoms that could be considered signs of schizophrenia and disassociation. I do not want pity. I do not want handouts. I do not want help. I want to be heard, more than anything.

In the longer version of this-- my book-- my dissertation-- my series of essays, whatever, I will go into what I believe is the scientific explanation for all of this and more, but I want to keep this focused on the themes surrounding the unfortunately named 'Pizzagate.' (How can you expect outsiders to take this seriously with a name like that?)

So you know where I'm coming from, I voted this year, but I voted for the write in candidate "none of the above." I think both Donald Trump and Hillary Clinton are disastrous choices, and we have entered a no-win situation, the kobayashi maru. Like Captain Kirk, I am attempting to reprogram the game so 'we' can win-- we the people.

I have been pulling on this thread for four and a half years. Not only was I witness to violence at a young age, I believe very strongly that I was sexually abused at a very young age. I have a very spotty memory of my youth, and I have been aware of sex for as long as I can remember. I have vague memories of one experience, and not unlike Pizzagate, there is a significant circumstantial evidence that might not have been the only time.

Four and a half years ago, I was a hardline atheist, having been raised as a ultra-conservative Christian Evangelical. I also am of Jewish descent. Not only that, but one grandfather is associated with the Freemasons-- not the shriner's club kind, but the secret club kind, and his father in law was a member of the KKK, rumored to be a Grand Wizard. That bloodline is said to go back to Charlemagne. On the Jewish side of my family, I have the surnames of the Jewish preisthood-- more than one.

Most of the coverage of 'Pizzagate' has focused on the disgusting, abhorrent behavior of pedophiles. I am not suggesting this is to be ignored, rather this is 'bigger' than simply that. I have 'traveled' far and wide as a human, and I have a very diverse life story, but this isn't the place for that, except to say, I believe this is the reason that I can "see" this.

Here is a video talking about ritual masonic abuse. This particular guy tries to link it to Crowley, and while that may or may not be the case, I'm certain this goes on long before Crowley every showed up. I believe that 'magic' is neither good nor evil, it is simply called different things by different people, and used in selfish, harmful ways, or for the betterment of one's group/country/planet. That said, there is plenty of 'dark magic' in the world, and the vast majority of us agree that raping, torturing and killing children is about the worst thing you can do.

In that video, the man suggests that Masons do this so they can "live forever." They intend to cause disassociation in the children who are victims, and this also creates a cycle of abuse-- it's well known that those abused as children are more likely to abuse children themselves. My theory is that if one's development is sufficiently arrested at a given age, their emotional attraction slows or stops at that age, creating a shattered self, carrying a 'dark passenger' who needs connection, and is locked into a certain age.

At the core of my theories is something that should not be too controversial-- we are animals, just like all the other animals on this planet. We have observed close knit flock and herd and schooling behavior in all manner of creatures, where groups of animals behave as if they were one organism. Humans seem more individualized-- and I believe we are, considering the control we have on the planet, but we haven't lost those connections entirely.

I believe many of these connections are through microorganisms such as bacteria, viruses etc. (Simply look up Toxoplasmosis to see how much a single parasite can affect the cycle of multiple species.) By raping a child, one mixes blood, semen, and bacteria in two directions, creating a link between the two. I propose that this is more than psychological, it is biological. As disgusting as it is to imagine, injecting one's fluids into a digestive track, especially a growing and developing one could very well modify that child's development. If you'd like to see an example of how a protein can modify cognition dramatically, simply look up "mad cow disease" aka Bovine spongiform encephalopathy. Not all of these interactions would be "negative" per se-- but influential either way.

I have neither the time nor the desire to go into my grand theory of cognition in this place, but consider the possibility that rather than being simple computers that process input-output from our sensory organs, our brains are actually more akin to radio receivers, tuning in different frequencies of energy-- which we know is the basis of our existence anyway.

This sort of exchange in a developing child would 'tune' the child to particular frequencies if my theory is correct. And once I began to look for "my kind" I found them in various places, both online and in real life. We can see it in each other's eyes. This is not a joke. There is a kind of 'eyelock' where a kind of deep communication is established. Sure, certain drugs can induce such connections, 'tuning in and turning on' as Timothy Leary once said, but once you "go there" and get a "larger view" you can go crazy. And I did for a while. Like John Nash in 'A Beautiful Mind.' Leary also had a third instruction-- 'Drop Out' and many took that to mean 'drop out of society' but I believe it suggests to come back to the real world, actually the opposite meaning.

Now, this is only part of what 'The Illuminati' is-- for I believe that it holds many names, the 'higher ups' who control our species are ALL Illuminati of one kind or another-- Be it the Vatican, The Kabalah, the 'Wizards' of Wall Street and worldwide banking, Powerful Hollywood Producers, Politicians, and even the likes of Kanye West. I understood exactly what Kanye was saying before he was committed-- when you see 'the thing' it's almost impossible to communicate it-- it's maddening-- that's one of the reason I'm holding things back here, you have to let it out a little at a time.

Not only the rich and powerful are in these clubs-- and they are more than back room meetings, though I'm sure that's some of it-- But I have come to believe that the highest levels of "Intelligence Agencies" are completely unspoken-- an uber-hivemind if you will-- several of them doing battle, even. (Again, lots more to say on this some other time.) See: Egyptians, Nazis, Mossad, CIA and on and on...

I believe the highest levels learn to "tune in" certain frequencies on certain channels, essentialy vectors in spacetime, and these are representative of 'Gods' throughout the ages. Just like the Romans married their pantheon to gnostic Christianity, and kept the weird stuff for the back rooms of the Vatican, and made a version of Christianity to keep their subjects in line, so too are every hierarchy. This is the pyramid scheme that runs our species-- and it always has. This is the Pyramid symbology. You are climbing towards (being or merging with) the all-seeing eye. The Holy Roman Empire just told you never to climb the pyramid, just worship the eye at the top.

I cannot go into specifics here, and I am sorry, but I have been following pizzagate for mainly one reason: Marina Abramovic. She is unquestionably a very powerful witch, and I had no idea until many pieces came together for me. I realized that I had been caught up in her magic. (I'm sorry I can't say more here, it's both a long story, and a bit close to home at the moment)

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