And you didn't prepare because you relaxed. You became dead weight. The interesting thing is, after a day of disappointment and anger, the best thing seem to be to ride it out. Give into the weakness, and relax to the max. Reach the bottom as dead weight. That way, there is only 2 things you can do. Go up or die. And of course....your not gonna die, because somebody needs to make it breh, and you know its gonna be me an you.

Tonight, there is only one thing left, prepare absinthe and beer, and navigate the waves of the more calm parts of voat, chan, youtube.....just ride it out right to the bottom. Chillax.

Tomorrow......tomorrow its back to the lists. Get up, sober up for an hour or two, and get back to the to do lists. Clearly your failure was the result of not following your to do lists as if they are FUCKING GOD IT SELF.

Because they are. To do list = actual real god of man kind.