You have dedicated your entire life to a book written by the enemy and you can't let it go. The god of the old testament was a piece of shit. Blood sacrifices. Child sacrifices. They nailed Jesus to a fucking cross. Kinda dark huh? Organized religion was the barrier that separated us from God. From source energy. When you go to church you are worshipping the fucking middle man. The law of one is real. The Urantia book is real. The Bible is the cabal along with every other major religion on the planet. Enjoy your straight jackets.