After months of reading and listening it strikes me as odd that you rarely take your own advice. You like to write on the need for objectivity and logic. Please, tell me in as simple form as you can. Which of the following are more logical:
Option A: you from the time of your birth were secretly recorded. Including but not limited to your time at home, school, interactions with friend, while on vacation, at your place of employment etc... those tapes were made with each and every other person who came into your life with at least some form of knowledge that they were part of the “Alan show.” They had parts to play and they all played them without ever saying another word to anyone else — ever. Tehy continue to hold those secrets today because, well that who would ever want to admit they took place in that? Additionally, the elites would at times watch your live feed for enjoyment on special days and/or stream them for later enjoyment. That this filming continued for decades in secret.
Or, Option B: at some point in the last year you suffered a delusional break.
I write all of this to not to mock and ridicule you. But at some point this begins to look like a situation where the little old man while walking down the street trips and falls. He was carrying lots of groceries snd they spilled everwhere. Do you either walk by, laugh to yourself and share the story with your friends and acquaintances so they can join in your laughter or do you stop and help them up?
In this case you are the little old man, I do not want to continue to keep walking by and laughing at the absurdity. Instead, it is time to stop and help. Unfortunately, the sort of help you require, I am most likely not capable of offering (based upon where you live) so instead I offer you this. Please go talk to a professional wherever you may live. This all reads as someone who is suffering from delusional disorder and it really requires a professionals attention.
The way my brain works with its resetting means it is constantly questioning itself. The idea of it being black and white, either conspiracy or a delusional break says quite a bit about your perspective and falls apart under scrutiny at least from my perspective. I can't possibly be 100% because nobody can be 100% objective, even when they have a resetting brain like I do.. no, we are all at the mercy of our own flawed presumptions based on a lifetime of analyzing data and reconciling it.
I read your reply and I'm just like - welp that's almost a logical way to look at it but it requires the disregarding of "what is a pattern" as Q said once - and just presuming oneself in a narrow beam of true or false - the quantity of events negates the plausibility of it being happenstance or delusion lest every memory I have were infected in some way but if that were the case then even me typing right now would be more likely an event of throwing feces at a wall in an asylum - because that's the level of disconnect in sanity required to allow for such a wide-scale absolute corruption of being.
Or so I think - we are free to disagree and clearly do.
But to use your conclusions and give you my response: well, either I'm crazy or I'm not, and if I'm not then perhaps my views on objectivity are part of why the good guys want to put me in the courtroom and have me help educate folks away from the group think. After all there are many victims and yet it appears I'm going first.
We shall see in either way, so have a wonderful day in any case.
Your pattern requires that nearly everyone who has ever come in contact with you was in on a broader conspiracy to torment you? That is neither logical or objective! It is a narcissistical point of view! You are attaching a level of importance to yourself above all other humans that lived anywhere near you! They each have their own lives independent of yours.
I am not trying to be rude or shout you down! That is neither my goal or my hope. Rather, I am genuinely concerned about your state of mental health. If you have not recently, please go visit with a mental health professional.
replace "nearly everyone" with about 6 people at any given moment, sometimes more, sometimes less, as keeping me isolated for much of my life means it doesnt' take that many people - the ad libbing of it actually works with people who are not in on it. So it's not everyone. I also visited psychiatrists at the facility with the other victims and came out with a clean bill of mental health.
just because my life is a strange story doesn't mean it's not true.
That is clearly a lie. If your victim story were true- you wouldn’t have a “clean bill of mental health”. You are either lying about being evaluated or lying about being a victim or perhaps both.
permanent scars and plenty of trauma but even that is recoverable. Nothing in this world lasts forever, neither the evil's effects on a mind nor its very existence.
As someone that has been molested by a parent ... this is not true. That’s not how psychiatrists or mental help works. Your lies take away from real victims. You should be ashamed.
I had a death wish when I was 12 years old thanks to all the shit they did to me and it lasted for over a decade, so I fear not death, not anymore.
I look forward to both God's judgement as well as the public disclosure. I normally have an open heart for fellow victims and a helping hand but I do not believe you are a victim as you attacked me in an evil way by wrapping yourself up in a victim and then speaking for all victims. I fear for your soul, but we all have to make our own choices in life and you have to live with yours. Either do good deeds, pray, and be forgiven or wallow in continue to wallow in the filth of negative assertions and accusations of someone who you do not know and yet presume to explain them to others.
If you are not lying ... then get some damn mental health help. Don’t hang out on the internet begging for attention. That’s pathetic, transparent and a big disservice to all victims. Shame on you!
considering who and how I was asked to speak up about the crimes committed against me I don't think that's pathetic - nor do I feel ashamed, what place can I give voice to my story except through VOAT which is the only place I remain uncensored? Well uncensored except for the voices shouting me down like you. And I've only uploaded the one video, the next one is going to be so much better. I'll have to return all this ill-will with more effort : )
Again. Another pathetic lie. Maybe you’ve had some trauma. But you sure are an attention whore. No better than the women accusing Judge K. Shame on you.
determined to get the last word are you? I think the thread I started is running at about 27 comments and 23 of them are negative. It's a badge of honor... I've been censored from twitter, shadowbanned, deleted and now permantley suspended in multiple accounts, I've been deleted from youtube and shouted down countless times on 8chan - not a single thing anyone can do to me can keep my story under wraps for much longer. Your words remind me of the first day of my 2nd twitter acct when they got a disabled veteran to accuse me of being a clown. Each and every attack I receive just makes me more steadfast. I used to cringe and be hurt but now? now, it just depresses me... the end of an empire and this is the best they can do.
Ok. Cling to your pathetic story. I’ll check each month and I promise you that you will still have excuses about why you still have no proof and your imaginary stories will still just be you searching for attention. What a pathetic human being.
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14306427? ago
After months of reading and listening it strikes me as odd that you rarely take your own advice. You like to write on the need for objectivity and logic. Please, tell me in as simple form as you can. Which of the following are more logical:
Option A: you from the time of your birth were secretly recorded. Including but not limited to your time at home, school, interactions with friend, while on vacation, at your place of employment etc... those tapes were made with each and every other person who came into your life with at least some form of knowledge that they were part of the “Alan show.” They had parts to play and they all played them without ever saying another word to anyone else — ever. Tehy continue to hold those secrets today because, well that who would ever want to admit they took place in that? Additionally, the elites would at times watch your live feed for enjoyment on special days and/or stream them for later enjoyment. That this filming continued for decades in secret.
Or, Option B: at some point in the last year you suffered a delusional break.
I write all of this to not to mock and ridicule you. But at some point this begins to look like a situation where the little old man while walking down the street trips and falls. He was carrying lots of groceries snd they spilled everwhere. Do you either walk by, laugh to yourself and share the story with your friends and acquaintances so they can join in your laughter or do you stop and help them up?
In this case you are the little old man, I do not want to continue to keep walking by and laughing at the absurdity. Instead, it is time to stop and help. Unfortunately, the sort of help you require, I am most likely not capable of offering (based upon where you live) so instead I offer you this. Please go talk to a professional wherever you may live. This all reads as someone who is suffering from delusional disorder and it really requires a professionals attention.
Good luck with your treatment!
14309328? ago
The way my brain works with its resetting means it is constantly questioning itself. The idea of it being black and white, either conspiracy or a delusional break says quite a bit about your perspective and falls apart under scrutiny at least from my perspective. I can't possibly be 100% because nobody can be 100% objective, even when they have a resetting brain like I do.. no, we are all at the mercy of our own flawed presumptions based on a lifetime of analyzing data and reconciling it.
I read your reply and I'm just like - welp that's almost a logical way to look at it but it requires the disregarding of "what is a pattern" as Q said once - and just presuming oneself in a narrow beam of true or false - the quantity of events negates the plausibility of it being happenstance or delusion lest every memory I have were infected in some way but if that were the case then even me typing right now would be more likely an event of throwing feces at a wall in an asylum - because that's the level of disconnect in sanity required to allow for such a wide-scale absolute corruption of being.
Or so I think - we are free to disagree and clearly do.
But to use your conclusions and give you my response: well, either I'm crazy or I'm not, and if I'm not then perhaps my views on objectivity are part of why the good guys want to put me in the courtroom and have me help educate folks away from the group think. After all there are many victims and yet it appears I'm going first.
We shall see in either way, so have a wonderful day in any case.
14309744? ago
Your pattern requires that nearly everyone who has ever come in contact with you was in on a broader conspiracy to torment you? That is neither logical or objective! It is a narcissistical point of view! You are attaching a level of importance to yourself above all other humans that lived anywhere near you! They each have their own lives independent of yours.
I am not trying to be rude or shout you down! That is neither my goal or my hope. Rather, I am genuinely concerned about your state of mental health. If you have not recently, please go visit with a mental health professional.
14313169? ago
replace "nearly everyone" with about 6 people at any given moment, sometimes more, sometimes less, as keeping me isolated for much of my life means it doesnt' take that many people - the ad libbing of it actually works with people who are not in on it. So it's not everyone. I also visited psychiatrists at the facility with the other victims and came out with a clean bill of mental health.
just because my life is a strange story doesn't mean it's not true.
14313628? ago
That is clearly a lie. If your victim story were true- you wouldn’t have a “clean bill of mental health”. You are either lying about being evaluated or lying about being a victim or perhaps both.
14313748? ago
permanent scars and plenty of trauma but even that is recoverable. Nothing in this world lasts forever, neither the evil's effects on a mind nor its very existence.
14313833? ago
As someone that has been molested by a parent ... this is not true. That’s not how psychiatrists or mental help works. Your lies take away from real victims. You should be ashamed.
14314704? ago
and I am disgusted by your reply which uses the guise of a real victim to pretend like I'm not one. You have no monopoly on the truth, begone shill.
14315086? ago
You are pathetic. You are going to have to answer to God one day. I’m afraid you are not going to like your judgement.
14315303? ago
I had a death wish when I was 12 years old thanks to all the shit they did to me and it lasted for over a decade, so I fear not death, not anymore.
I look forward to both God's judgement as well as the public disclosure. I normally have an open heart for fellow victims and a helping hand but I do not believe you are a victim as you attacked me in an evil way by wrapping yourself up in a victim and then speaking for all victims. I fear for your soul, but we all have to make our own choices in life and you have to live with yours. Either do good deeds, pray, and be forgiven or wallow in continue to wallow in the filth of negative assertions and accusations of someone who you do not know and yet presume to explain them to others.
14315388? ago
If you are not lying ... then get some damn mental health help. Don’t hang out on the internet begging for attention. That’s pathetic, transparent and a big disservice to all victims. Shame on you!
14315528? ago
considering who and how I was asked to speak up about the crimes committed against me I don't think that's pathetic - nor do I feel ashamed, what place can I give voice to my story except through VOAT which is the only place I remain uncensored? Well uncensored except for the voices shouting me down like you. And I've only uploaded the one video, the next one is going to be so much better. I'll have to return all this ill-will with more effort : )
14315355? ago
Again. Another pathetic lie. Maybe you’ve had some trauma. But you sure are an attention whore. No better than the women accusing Judge K. Shame on you.
14315462? ago
determined to get the last word are you? I think the thread I started is running at about 27 comments and 23 of them are negative. It's a badge of honor... I've been censored from twitter, shadowbanned, deleted and now permantley suspended in multiple accounts, I've been deleted from youtube and shouted down countless times on 8chan - not a single thing anyone can do to me can keep my story under wraps for much longer. Your words remind me of the first day of my 2nd twitter acct when they got a disabled veteran to accuse me of being a clown. Each and every attack I receive just makes me more steadfast. I used to cringe and be hurt but now? now, it just depresses me... the end of an empire and this is the best they can do.
14315571? ago
Ok. Cling to your pathetic story. I’ll check each month and I promise you that you will still have excuses about why you still have no proof and your imaginary stories will still just be you searching for attention. What a pathetic human being.
14315604? ago
"I promise you that you will still have excuses" nice to see that you no longer just speak for all victims but me as well.
14315697? ago
Ok. Nice try. Just watch who will be proven right.