I am a pretty avid user on /r/conspiracy. I have seen that place transform like crazy over the years, but I think that is all I need to say about that! You all would not be here if you did not understand.

For a year or so, I came to Voat, but then I felt like it had gotten overtaken. What I mean is Reddit seemed like the "left extremists" and Voat seemed like the "right extremists."

I decided to take a break from Voat and go back to /r/conspiracy. Over the years, I have had some popular submissions there. Then, it happened. I was linked to /r/topmindsofreddit. That was like a year ago. Now, I'm not saying Reddit was ever not compromised, but the last year has been insane. Death and doxxing threats are just some of the crap I deal with daily. Since then, I have been attacked like crazy on that sub, especially by shills that follow me around. There is even a private subreddit called /r/polkadotgirl - wonder what they do there? ; )

One may ask why I have not just deleted my name and established a new one, but I did not think about that before making a new sub. Now, looking back, I would have used a different user name, but it has nearly 3,000 subscribers, and I do not want to give up just yet! (/r/conspiracyundone - feel free to join if you are still on Reddit!)

In that time, I have been exposed to just how corrupt Reddit really is. My perspective as a mod on a conspiracy sub...well, let's just say I am shocked.

I can say for certain that most if not all subs are compromised, even the ones you would not expect. Now, do not get me wrong, there may still be some good some subs and some good mods, but...lord.

I think it is a mixture of things:

1) There are absolutely mods that are directly hired to take over subs 2) There are mods that are easily corruptible (a little power gets to their heads) - I am starting to see how a little power gets to people, and I can see how people can become evil with power (on a larger scale). If just a little modding power gets to people, think about exponential powers that some leaders hold! 3) People's inability to recognize their own biases and reflect on how that may affect how they control different subreddits. This is something I am learning a lot. Even if people are not paid shills, they are so wrapped in their paradigms that they really are not different from real shills - they are just working for free!

I have done everything I can to be a transparent mod, and now I see, it is NOT that hard to be transparent as a mod!! Who would have thought that being clear and transparent to a community really is not that hard?! The conspiracy is that modding and transparency is easy. So is modding and corruption (At least on Reddit).

The point of this post is that I feel we are now in a very different era. It is going to be harder and harder to find communities to explore the truth. I think one thing they are for sure doing is attempting to correlate conspiracy theorists with bigotry/hate speech. Topmindsofreddit tries to label me as a Neo-Nazi, but I can tell that this is just the beginning. I mean, I know this is already happening, but I can see it getting way worse in the next few years.

I am here to make sure I continue to explore all avenues of speech as I feel they have all been mostly compromised. Though I have not been on Voat for a while, I am going come back and participate here more. I am, of course, still growing my sub, but I want to make sure I do not dismiss places where good things are happening!

The saddest part of my journey is that I have realized that many people really are so corrupt. I know all may not be spiritual or religious here, but if this is not the end times, I do not know what it is (or it is hard to imagine how it could be worse than this!)

It is almost as if I feel like I cannot trust anyone, and that is sad. Something has been lost.

Still, the harder we shine the light of truth, the harder the darker forces will push back!

Anyway, thanks for reading, and I hope this was at least some what insightful. I would love to hear your thoughts!!