I know how you feel Carmencita! That is how I felt the night of the election! I had was waking up leading up to election night and had started digging around about the evidence surfacing among the alternative and independent media when I came across the spirit cooking photos again. Had seem them before, but had been spending all my spare time interacting with people other forums trying to get people to see the lies being told on the other side. We had so many people turn and say Dem never again. Of course I prefer doing away withe the two party system, but you get the picture.

I, as many others did had worked so hard during the election to get the real truth out there, I was looking forward to my popcorn night and staying up to enjoy the fruits of our labor. I truly believed in spite of all they were telling us (as I still watched the Tell a Vision Box back then) that we all had a fighting chance and God was on our side because so many of us were united in prayer against someone who was so corrupt and clearly had built their career on a stack of lies!

So there was my husband wondering why I was at the table still researching. I figured she was evil, so thought these people must be reaching, it all must be drama. But as I kept looking up articles and verifying photos, comments with my own two eyes, and not just what people were saying, I was floored. I remember going through at least two weeks of not sleeping well, shaking, crying, praying because I never knew evil existed on this level. I knew about weirdos, always followed the bulletins on missing children even as a child when my dad was a police chief, asked then constantly how they weren't able to find All those children Ever. No one had a good answer.

I truly had set out initially to debunk what people originally called pizzagate. After I poured over all that evidence and tried to tell people about it on my channel, I started looking into all the other cases I didn't realize had gone on around us for years. Like the Franklin Cover-up, McMartin Preschool case, then onto Demmink and Detreaux and it was all almost too much to absorb. Like lightening speed compared to what I knew or thought I understood before. That is when God started showing me, it wasn't just a pizzagate problem though they have their piles of corruption spreading it's evil tentacles everywhere, but rather they were all connected in many ways worldwide.

I became hated by regular people for speaking about such horrors they didn't want to deal with and hated by the pizzagate crowd because I wouldn't Just call it pizzagate since I saw the Bigger Picture.

As I covered many pedophile cases including SRA verified by the media I continued to relive and cry about what these poor children have to endure over and over.

It never stops, I finally realized when I get so overwhelmed I have to start praying to God to comfort and help these victims and let them know He loves them and other people know and want their agony to end. I still pray for them daily and ask God to continue exposing this evil to those asleep and to bring justice.

Pretty much every person in my family has told me I should stop. Most don't understand why someone would do something like this. Others simply feel I am too consumed and others including old friend simply despise me for doing something and dedicating so much time to something they don't believe exists. I have family members and friends who no longer have anything to with me. It wasn't like we weren't told this would happen.

I can't stop. I have tried, but the Creator draws me right back in. He is the one who leads me to what needs to be covered. Many times I have to leave research I am working on or corruption I am in the midst of uncovering for what He directs me to. I always know He is behind everything uncovered and brought to light.

God does give peace when I leave this sadness in His hands. The amount of corruption and abuse can be overwhelming and all consuming. Do you feel like you are a completely different person now that you know? Would you go back if you could?