So, back in the early 2000's I admitted to myself that I was the dreaded "P" word. I won't go into a whole lot of back story but I will try and answer all your questions. I will start off by saying that I have never done anything that would be considered inappropriate to a child. Also, I personally hate that word so you will not find me using it here.
I have always been attracted to young girls, and weather anyone believes it or not I believe I was born this way because I cannot remember a time in my life where this was not the case.
Anyhow, fast forward to the mid 1990's until the mid 2000's and I found internet forums. I had been looking at and for CP from the time I got my first computer in 1994. We used to swap images in AOL chat-rooms, Hotwire, Napster, Scour and UseNet but I never actually had any kind of relationship with others like me until 1999 I found a forum called lilgirl forum which was run by a guy from England who went by the name Mystwr. ( I am only giving this information that could possibly expose me because there may be someone out there who can verify that I am not BSing here and I want to do whatever I can to help bring these fuckers down. You all might hate me, and that's fine I'm not here to discuss the morality of pedophilia, I'm just here to help expose these sick fucks hurting children. )
I had found a place with people just like me. We would talk together about girls and our attractions and stuff like that, most of us were very strict about not acting out our desires and using each other as support.
Myself, Mystwr, and I would say 99% of the people there (and there were thousands many famous people, judges, lawyers, musicians, politicians, athletes and regularJoes, even women..) were 100% against ANY mistreatment of children and we were active in going so far as to report to law enforcement people whom we found to be an actual threat to children. I am not trying to say we were saints, we all watched CP we traded it etc. and I know at some level that was contributing to the problem and that is a part of the reason I eventually left the community. We had meetups we would travel across the country in some cases to meet up with other people from the forum and chat and just have a good time knowing we could talk to another human being about things we dare never speak aloud. When I first met another person like me I think we cried for a good half hour together it was just a huge emotional release. Several of our members ended up killing themselves and we ran a support system to prevent suicide of others like us.
Let me explain that this was a time in my life where I absolutely hated myself for how I felt and like a horrible human being. I knew I would never hurt anyone but the repressed feelings were impossible to withhold and watching CP is how I dealt with that. Meeting others like me and just being able to talk to them was more satisfying that any amount of CP and it eventually helped me to deal with these feelings to the point where I hardly notice them anymore. It was a long, difficult road but I am glad I found the people I did.
Anyhow, fast forward a few years I had become so active in the forums that I ended up running them. Mywsr had been busted for CP and was locked up and many others were busted in stings around the world. I started several of my own forums and became somewhat of a celebrity among the community. People respected me and respected my hard stance on things like torture, rape, exploitation etc. I admit that back then I had a whole lot of different views than I have now. I was an advocate of free love no matter age and my stance on that has changed drastically since then.
Anyhow, I ended up leaving the community, it became too much of a burden people were getting locked up and it turned into a place I could no longer associate with. Shortly after I gave up CP completely and can proudly say that I haven't looked back. I am still attracted to young girls and I am sure I always will be.
That all being said I'm writing this because I do have knowledge that is unique to this situation so I thought I could answer some questions for you guys because what is being done is horrible and these people need to be locked up. I doubt that my knowledge will be of a lot of help but whatever I can do to help put these fuckers away I will do.
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waxdino ago
So, does what we think looks like pedo activity, actually seem legit? I'm guessing it must, if you want it stopped. What, specifically, have been red flags to someone familiar with that sort of activity?
Are the symbols correct? What symbols look real, which are coincides?
What about the slang?
5151 ago
The slang is on par but different than what we used back in the day. Some of the key words words we used were PT, (Pre-teen) Kinder, (5 and under) Cake,(A little girls parts) Wine, (a vintage wine was an older girl (meaning over the age of 12) i.e. "7yo vintage red/blonde/brown etc. stuff like that) CL, (child love) KL, (Kinder love) KG (KG is also slang for CP there was a very famous set of images and videos called "Kinder", LG (Little Girl), LGL, (little Girl Lover) other words were used "Inga" was a word we used for Russian girls. (Inga was also one of the stars of a child porn series called KG or Kindergarten she was a 5 year old girl from Russia. ( I was never into boys so I don't have a lot to offer as far as boy keywords.) of course CP, or Cheese Pizza I imagine that's where the whole "pizza" thing started.
Wow, It's been a long time... I am honestly kind of weary about doing this and bringing up all these memories but I suppose circumstances dictate.
Anyhow, AOA is "Age of Attraction" is how we used to determine what people were into. "What's your AOA?" LGL 5-10. or "I like littler girls from the ages 5-10) The biggest difference I've seen is that the buzwords have gotten a lot more cryptic over the years. HC (Hard core, or PTHTC which is Pre-Teen Hurt-core which was despicable, horrible shit like beatings mutilations and shit like that.
Back then we were pretty easy to figure out.
So, the buz words are not the same as they were back then but the way they are used it's clear as a bell what they are talking about. There is absolutely no doubt in my mind what they were talking about.
EDIT Added definitions to my acronyms.
DirtyDancingRedShoes ago
Amazing.. another world. How many are there put there that we are so unaware. You're awesome! Thanks for any help.